Need You To Need Me | Jenlisa

VIII.

Lisa didn't call Jennie. Even after Jennie's dozens of texts asking her how she was and her sending silly videos that she knew would made Lisa laugh.

But Lisa didn't break, even if Jennie's texts were so cute it made Lisa's heart flutter every time the notification from her phone went off. But no matter how much Lisa wanted to, she never replied to them, not even once. Not answering probably hurt her as much as it did to Jennie.

She wasn't avoiding Jennie only, she hadn't gotten back to neither Jungkook, Rosè or Jisoo's texts.
So she wasn't really surprised when one day, the doorbell rang and, as soon as she opened the door, Jisoo was already coming in and making her way to the couch in the living room.

"Please, make yourself at home, Jisoo" she joked, rolling her eyes.

"I've been coming here since I was three, this is my home as much as it is yours." She said while taking her feet up to the footrest.
"Plus" she added "Your mum loves me"
"Mum! Your favorite child's home!" She shouted, hoping to make Lisa smile.

"She's out working" Lisa was in no mood to joke.

"Well i guess I'm staying for dinner, then" Jisoo insisted.

"She'll still be out" lisa responded, disinterested.

"Then I'm eating with you, Lisa" jisoo brought her arm to her chest and said "What's your problem? Don't you want me here? Is that why you haven't been answering my texts?"

"I sent you a penguin video that was hilarious, Lisa. Hilarious"

Jisoo kept talking while Lisa made her way to the kitchen where she was pouring her a cup of coffee. She would need that if Jisoo had no intention on leaving anytime soon.

"What brings you here, Jisoo?" " I know you didn't come all the way over here to show me a penguin video"

"Except for you not answering your text for a week? I gave you your usual three days, but then I got worried"

"I'm fine, nothing to be worried about" Lisa said while avoiding eye contact with her friend.

"You're skinnier than the time you had your appendix taken out"

Lisa didn't answer to that. Weight had always been something she had struggled all her life with. There were times when her stomach seemed to close and there was no way she could make it ingest even a cookie.
But she wouldn't say she hadn't the situation under controlled. Given her past, her mum always weighted her and forced her to eat at least a meal a day.
The fact that her mum had been gone on a business trip, that she didn't mention to Jisoo.

Lisa had been so exhausted that food had been the last thing on her mind.
She had spent her days studying for the finals that were waiting for her once Christmas break would be over. And when she wasn't studying, she put her headphones on and blast whatever sad songs she could find on her playlist.
She didn't think about Jennie during the day, that's something she kept for her sleepless nights. When she would pay anything to have the brunette in her arms and at the same time She hated herself for it.

"Does Jennie have anything to do with any of this?" Jisoo asked.

"Why are you bringing her up?" Lisa suddenly tensed up at the mention of her best friend's name.

"Well, she told me you haven't been answering her texts either"

"I haven't been answering anyone's texts, why would I answer hers? She's not special. Plus, I have been studying for finals so I have been busy."

"Okay okay, no need to get all defensive. I'm here to spend some time with you, not to talk about stuff you don't wanna talk about".
"So what so you say we watch a movie uh? The Holiday sounds good?". Jisoo proposed. She knew better than to bring out Jennie into the conversation given Lisa's current state.