rainy days - dreamnotfound

chapter 1

TW SH, SUCICDAL THOUGHTS, ED
dreams pov
dream sat on his bed thousands of miles away from his love, george. george didn't know he was dreams love though.
incoming discord call: georgenotfound
dream jumped up from his bed and ran over to his computer.
"hey george what do you need?"
"oh i was about to hop on the smp if you wanna stream with me?"
"ok yeah sure"
dream hops onto the smp and starts streaming, after the stream dream gets a sudden rush of sadness. dream hops onto his bed and starts sobbing.
"i'm worthless, ill be never be anything. i should just go kill myself. no one would care."
incoming phone call: gogy :D
declined
dream walks over to his bathroom and looks at himself in the mirror. he's proud of himself because he's almost eaten nothing in the past few weeks.
"i feel so lightheaded"
dream collapses on the ground, and he wakes up 13 hours later.
"what the fuck happened, why does my head hurt so much?"
dream gets up and he walks over to his kitchen and makes some tea. he looks at his phone and sees he has a text from george.
gogy :D: hey r u ok ? u seem kinda off lately .
dream :p: im fine don't worry :)
"i'm not fine", dream thinks.
after he finishes his tea he walks into his bathroom and pulls out a razor to numb the pain.
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dream looks at his bloodied up arm and wonders were he went wrong as tears stream down his face.
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dream starts to feel lightheaded and passes out once more.
george's pov
george has been worried about dream a lot lately, so he called sapnap
"hey sapnap?"
"what is it george, is everything alright?"
"it's dream...i'm worried about him i feel like somethings off."
"i bet it's nothing george don't worry, if anything was wrong he'd tell you he's your best friend"
"yeah your right sapnap, ok i gotta go thanks dude"
"anytime"
george walks to his bed and turns some music on to fall asleep too. he wonders if dream knows that he's in love with him and he'd do anything for him. george hopes that dream knows he's in love, a hour later george still hasn't fell asleep and he hops on the smp. he is building a cute house and realizes that dreams on. george calls dream on discord, and dream picks up.
"hey dream!"
"h-hi george.."
"wanna help me build my house?"
"s-sure one second"
"hey clay...are you ok?"
dreams pov
dream sat in shock, george never uses his actual name unless he's really mad or worried.
"george...i'm fine"
dream disconnects from the call.
"what the fuck is wrong with me...he obviously cares so why didn't i open up to him. why am i so scared of telling him what's happening in my life?"
dream starts breaking down in his gaming chair.
"i should go kill myself, george doesn't love me and he never will. i'm not good enough for anyone."
dream walks into the bathroom and walks to his scale. he looks at the number on the scale and falls down to the ground and sobs.
"why am i not good enough..?"

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hi guys i'm not trying to glorify eating disorders, suicidal thoughts, and self harm. i would just like to say that i'm just self projecting things i go through into my writing.