rainy days - dreamnotfound

chapter 5

TW SUICIDAL THOUGHTS
sapnaps pov
"yeah sapnap, i'm in love with george."
sapnap sat in shock, both george and dream told sapnap that they were in love with each other.
"dream i gotta go, can i call you back later ?"
"yeah bye sapnapie"
"shut up dream, bye", sapnap said while laughing.
"damn, george and dream both are in love with each other, and the other doesn't know it. i should set them up together thatd be pog."
georges pov
"damn it's dreams birthday soon isn't it ? i'll have to get him something"
george hopped on discord and called dream but he didn't pick up, he started playing on the smp when sapnap called him.
"georgieee"
"what sapnap ?"
"i know something you don't knowwww"
"shut up sapanp, anyways wanna hop on the smp and play with me ?"
"yeah sure"
after griefing tommyinnits house sapnap and george decide to get off the smp. george went over to his shower and turned the water on.
incoming call: clay :)
declined
gogy :D: sorry i'm showering.
dream :): u could still pick up i wouldn't mind ;)
gogy :D: dream ?
dream :): what gogy ?
gogy :D: whatd u mean by that u didn't mind if i picked up ?
dream :): oh nothing call me when you get out george
gogy :D: ok
after george got out of the shower he called dream
"hey george.."
"hey clay !!"
"george can i tell u something ?"
george started freaking out, not knowing what he was gonna say.
"what is it dream ?"
"your....really cute george, and really nice and funny and amazing"
george started blushing hardcore.
"dream..."
"what is it gogy ?"
"u-um i think..your really nice and amazing and funny too"
"george..i wish i could throw you against a wall and kiss you slowly"
"....dream..."
"just playing with you george"
"ok.....bye dream have a goodnight"
"bye george"
george was sitting in his chair, wondering if he was only just messing with him. george went over to his window, opened it and climbed onto the roof. george sat on the roof whenever he needed to think.
"he couldn't have been just messing with me...could he? i mean he sounded so serious and i mean he could've meant it"
he looked at the sky, with small teardrops running down his face. dream had to have been telling the truth, he had to be. george ended up falling asleep up on the roof thinking about dream.
dreams pov
"should i have told george that i wasn't joking ? i should tell him that i need him in my life and that i love him, if he rejects me though i'll be lost and probably end up killing myself. anyways george would never love me i'm a waste of space who should go kill himself because no one loves me. but what if george loves me? what if he actually cares about me....but he could never i'm to much of a monster. he could never love me...but i want him to so bad, i need to see him and throw him against a wall and just kiss him slowly. i need to fly out and see him and tell him how i feel before it's too late, i need to know if he loves me back i need to know. i love george so much and i need to know how he feels, because if he loves me i'll have a reason to live. i need to kiss him, i need to hold him and i need him to tell me it's gonna be alright. i need you george, but i don't think you'll ever know that."
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