"Push!"
It kept ringing in my head but all I could think about was where Jerry was and why his number wasn't going through.
Did I mess up by leaving? Did something happen to him? Omg did he get into an accident?
A lot was going through my head all in the whole of the pain of my labor. It hurt a lot and I was almost out of strength to push.
"Come on Thelma you can do this!" I heard Abebarin from a distant my vision was blurry now and I felt weaker.
"Thelma Push! He's almost out. Just two more heavy push's you can do this." The doctor encouraged me but really I was tired and just wanted to take a nap.
"Thelma you can do this. Jerry's not here but I'm here and I'm sure he would come as soon as he gets my numerous text messages." Abebarin encouraged and I finally let out a heavy push.
Arghhhhh
"Yes! You've done it." The doctor said as I finally rested.
"Doctor... there's no cry." I heard one of the nurses say as they all suddenly rushed to my baby.
What was going on? Why's my baby not crying?
"Doctor, is my baby fine?" I asked as I struggled to get up to know what was going on.
Nobody answered me as they kept moving around the room grabbing stuffs. I wasn't sure what was going on but I was certain something was wrong.
"Doctor!"
"Oh my God!" Abebarin finally let out and I could see she covered her mouth.
"Doctor!!! What happened to my baby?" I immediately began crying. It couldn't be! My baby couldn't be dead.
"Ms I'm very sorry." That was what the doctor said as he passed my baby to one of the nurses who covered my baby with a cloth.
"Noo! It can't be! My baby can't be dead!!!" I was yelling and tried to get up to go carry my child but they held me down.
"Mam calm down! Doctor we need to sedate her."
"No no no n...." they sedated me and I fell asleep.
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A month had passed after my baby's death. It was hard moving on from all that but Abebarin helped me all the way. I managed to get settled down in the UK and got a job at Abebarin workplace and was making a living for myself. I never did hear from Jeremy and it was totally my fault I blocked him back then and now his number never went through so I gave up looking for him.
My life was a cycle now.. work, home, church. I didn't attempt dating and I didn't make much friends just Abebarin and some few colleagues. I considered adoption but the process would be take a while so I decided to get very comfortable first.
"Would you be coming to my place for the weekend?" Abebarin asked as she passed me a cup of coffee.
"Yes sure I just have to get home and grab some stuffs. So would be at your place by like six."
"Alright awesome see you then. And Thelma smile I know it's just been four months since the whole incident but you need to get back in the world and start dating again. You deserve to be happy." Her words were comforting and she was probably right I just wasn't ready to put myself out there again.
The world certainly was a cruel place and even if I was now living in the UK my past still haunted me daily... if only I knew what happened to Jeremy and why I could never get a hold of him at the most crucial time of my life. I missed him a lot.
"Alright I gotta go." I said and gave her a brief hug before heading out to go to the subway to grab a train.
I was waiting for a train and it was to arrive in about a minute so I got up from the bench and walked closer to where the train would make a stop at so I could get in and find a window side seat. I loved staying at the window seat so I could have a view of the outside as we moved. Most days I shed a tear or two while in the train ride to my house while listening to music but I always comfort myself with the thought that I was in a better country and could make something off myself.
Abebarin was the one who helped me process my stay here and she has been a big support and I'm glad I met her. If only Jerry met here they would get along very fine... I'm pretty sure even Hannah would have liked her .
*horn*
The train was finally here. Oh my I got carried away with my thoughts. As the train came to a stop and the doors opened people started coming out so I waited for them to get off before I made my attempt to enter... there was a lot of people but suddenly I caught a glimpse of two familiar faces...
No... it couldn't be... is that Jerry?
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I know I've not updated in months 😪😫 I'm really sorry a lot has been going on with me.
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