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ethan pov

i turn around to hide my face and quickly tossed the napkin down onto the table. the waitress walked by and i asked her for the check quickly.

once i got it i paid her and left as fast as i could. fuck this.

alex pov
(A/N: oh get ready)

i feel bad. i haven't exactly kept my promise of the last year. i moved to an apartment in new york yes, but i spent most of my time at first in jersey keeping tabs on ethan.

just to make sure he was doing okay without me. i know i know it seems like it was more for me than for him.

.....you're right.

not only were they letting go but so was i. and it wasn't all sunshine and rainbows doing so.

but anyway, ethan comes to new york a lot for meetings and such, so when he does i try to see him when i can. but as the year went by i went to see him less and less. grayson always looked like he was doing good without me.

which hurt but also made me happy. i even watched him finally get a girlfriend. but ethan just looked like a lost puppy and i wanted to punch myself in the throat for doing that to him.

but i just knew i was bad news for him. i was bad news for ethan and grayson, i was bad news for max and athena, i was even bad news for my real and foster parents.

either way, i care about them both so much that they need to be happy. even if it means taking myself out of the equation.

but nonetheless one day i was walking out of my apartment building when i saw ethan and grayson outside of the coffee shop i go to every morning.

so seeing as i don't want them knowing where i am as in my literal house, i decided to hide. i saw ethan look around like he was waiting for someone and my heart just about shattered.

but then after i saw him just aimlessly looking around the streets i realized maybe he was just bored waiting in line. not everything is about me.

but regardless i dropped my whole day to follow them around the city like a weirdo who so obviously misses them but also had nothing better to do with her day.

"hold on one second e, i left something in the restaurant." i heard grayson say before turning around. i practically leaped into the nearest alleyway and up the stairs far enough to reach the small indent of the door frame and hide.

i turned my head away from the direction of the street and pressed my back up against the small but good enough hiding spot.

"you know, you never were good at following people." i heard graysons voice project into the alleyway. my heart dropped and i froze.

i shut my eyes a took a deep breath.

"this is only the second time." i said emerging from the shadows.

"two times too many" he says. before taking in my appearance.

"nice clothes" he says referring to my complete new wardrobe. new york is fashionable and i felt out of place so i bought new clothes.

still dark colors but with a touch of dark red. my new infatuation.

"yeah this isn't new jersey anymore" i said. the silence was thick and instead of there being an elephant in the room there was a whole damn herd.

"you told us to forget you but now you're following us?" he asks genuinely confused.

"the part i forgot to think about was forgetting about the two of you. which never worked. i wanted to not get in the middle of you both. and as long as i was still there i would be doing just that. but forgetting about you two is a lot harder than you think." i explained sitting down on the stairs.

grayson sits next to me and sighs.

"i'm okay, you know" he says as if to tell me it's safe to come home.

"i'm glad. you deserve to be." i said. "i'm sorry for the stalker shit but i saw you two on the street today and i just couldn't walk away." i added.

"it's been 7 months, lex. e and i are closer now. he's still sort of closed off but he's still hurting. and i get that you wanted to do what's best for us but leaving only made ethan worse." grayson said.

"i know i'm sorry. everytime i would drive back to jersey to see how you guys were doing i saw it in his eyes. so i stopped going because i hated that i did that. now i only see him when he comes for meetings." i explained.

"he only comes to those meetings to search the streets for you." grayson admits

"i just want him to find a world where he's happy and i just can't provide that. ive had blaine on my back for ages and i just don't want to bring that on him again. or you" i said.

"you told me one day we could catch up again. a day where i was okay again. i think we both need some sanity between us again." i looked over at him and thought.

"i cant come to jersey anymore without wanting to see him so maybe we could meet for lunch on the weekends here?" i asked.

"sounds amazing" grayson smiled.

"oh and bring scarlet" i smiled back.

"you stalked her too?" he asked chuckling.

"no but i heard you say her name outside of the coffee shop." he laughed and got up.

"well i should get back before they get weird about why i've been gone so long." i nodded and he pulled me in for a hug. i missed this.

but luckily we are both feelingsless.

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A/N: kind of a filler but important too

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