saved | e.d.

epilogue

GRAYSON POV

"damn ethan must've gone to bed late as fuck he's still not awake and it's almost noon." i said to everyone generally since we were all down here about to eat lunch.

"i don't know man, i thought i heard him come in late last night. i heard a door shut rather loudly so maybe he did just go to sleep too late." kingsman added.

"wait" i slightly turned my head to the side because i swore i heard something. "i think he's awake right now i heard a door open upstairs." i said. i then heard footsteps appear on the stairs.

i didn't bother to turn around though. i just spoke. "it's about time you got up you lazy ass" i joked laughing. though no one else laughed. in fact every single person in the room was dead silent.

so i turned around.

i just did not expect THAT to be what i saw.

ALEX POV

"let's go" i said wrapping my hands around his bicep.

we opened the door and i heard grayson say something but i didn't hear what. as soon as we got to the stairs, i heard grayson yell up to us- or ethan.

"it's about time you got up you lazy ass" he laughed at his own joke and normally everyone else would laugh too. but grayson wasn't really looking at who walked down the stairs.

but everyone else was.

they all had shocked and confused expressions. but as soon as grayson turned around they were all pretty much excited too.

"oh- well, welcome home alex." grayson said. and it's like that was everyones cue to attack me in hugs.

they all said things like 'we missed you' and 'finally' and such. but it's very easy to say that i really felt the love.

in my whole life the closest i ever had to family was the wranglers.

"i missed you guys too" i giggled before they all finally let go from their group hugs one by one.

"yeah whatever happened to that promise to visit" nash joked.

"it's such a long story but nevertheless i'm so sorry it's been so long." i apologized.

"no worries alex. when you left we all understood. we're just glad you're better and that you finally put this one out of his misery." hayes's eyes and head motioned to ethan who was still beside me now holding my hand.

"him and i both" we chuckled and sat down to eat the food grayson had cooked for lunch.

we all caught up and i filled them in on the death of blaine. the lunch quickly turned into an all day celebration. no joke.

besides the fact of getting lovingly teased for staying the night for obvious reasons, we were all happy. smiles on every single one of our faces, worry free since blain is no longer a threat to anyone anymore, and just thankful that we all ended up back together in one piece.

because for a moment there we all thought it was over. hell even i did.

but like i said before, i refuse to be afraid to be loved. and this entire household is one big family who loves me. and i love them.

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that night
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ETHANS POV

after a sort of long day, everyone had went to bed. alex and i had went to my room because we do that now. crazy right? her old room is still exactly how she left it, but she wants to be with me.

and that's my greatest blessing.

right now we were watching a movie but i couldn't focus on watching it. i was too busy thinking. alex was laying her head on me and i had my arm around her holding her close.

my thumb softly ran across the soft skin on her arm. and the only thing i could think about what that mysterious tattoo.

"lex?" i asked.

"yeah?" she turned to look at me slightly giving me her attention.

"your tattoo...i meant to ask you this morning but i forgot. what's it mean?" i asked honestly kind of dying to know the answer.

"it means you, it means max, it means, kingsman, it means athena, it's means everyone who has been there for me and saved me when i couldn't save myself.

before i met all of you, the only person that i had to count on was myself. every other person that i let in had failed me. i felt like no one ever loved me.

and of course you know that i was terrified to let you love me and to let myself love you. but after that night when you screamed and left hurting, i decided that i had enough. i told you that i loved you that day that we were in my apartment at each others throats in anger.

and as much as i was horrified that i let myself say that so easily, i felt a sort of release. i felt like this huge wait on my chest was gone. like i had finally let my heart guide me instead of fear.

so when you left and i felt that weight pile onto me again, i remembered the only way that i can make it better is to stop being so scared to be saved. and to be loved.

so i dragged max to the tattoo shop and i got it tattooed. so it always reminds me of what i have. and i shouldn't be afraid of that. to trust that it won't just leave or turn on me. because i love you. and i'm not afraid of that anymore.

i never will be again." she finished. her eyes were starting to tear up and i pulled her into my arms.

"it's a beautiful tattoo. beautiful meaning. i love it, and i love you." i said. "and i promise you. no matter what happens from now until the future, i won't stop loving you. i cant." i said with every bit of seriousness in my body.

but my heart was melting inside my chest. no one could do that to me but her.

and from that moment forward, she was mine forever, and i was hers.

i guess you could say we were both saved.

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A/N: i didn't know this was the last chapter until i wrote the last line. but wow. this book was one huge
emotional rollercoaster. this is also my longest book ever so THANK YOU for allowing me to write it and sticking with me.

thank you to everyone who read this book and loved it. and thank u for all the comments it's like my favorite thing in the world. i really enjoyed writing this even though it took me A LONG TIME to finish.

but without further ado, the end.

feel free to read any of my other books, i promise they're good too. i have another story that's been on hold for probably about a year now, and if you would like me to actually start writing it and post the first chapter PLEASE LMK.

anyways. longest farewell EVER.

peace<3