Newt x Reader (Older) Don't Leave Me Book: 2

Chapter 16

I woke up feeling weak and unmotivated, my arm was numb and my legs were cramped from the awkward sleeping position that I was in. I didn't want to stand up just yet but I felt like it was necessary for me to do so. As I sat up there were a lot of rummaging sounds and in an instant I felt someone's touch. I open my eyes more and look up to see Newt. That was the most beautiful thing to wake up to. After yesterday's events I was so worried that something could have gone wrong. Everything was just chaos in what felt like just moments ago. Seeing Newt's face as the first thing I woke up to see made me a little more reassured.

"Hello, Love."-Newt

His sweet voice was everything to me, he wasn't in pain, he was fine now. He looked happy even. I pulled him tightly into a hug which he happily returned. There was just silence for the most part, I was afraid to speak as I felt I would just start crying if I did. This time it would be happy tears though.

"Thank you. Thank you so much for not giving up on me. If I knew you had a cure I wouldn't have done any of that. I would have told you so much sooner and could have saved us all the pain. It's my fault for not believing in you."-Newt

I tightened my grip on him, it's not his fault. It was my fault for not noticing it sooner. I should have seen the signs, I was with him throughout it all.

"It's my fault Newt. Don't blame yourself."

"I will blame myself. For these past few years you've been blaming yourself for everything haven't you."-Newt

"I could have stopped everything and yet I didn't."

"We were all kids at that time. If I were you I would have done the same thing."-Newt

I don't want to talk about that topic anymore and made it come to a conclusion.

"Thank you for being alive."

After a few more enjoyable moments with Newt, word had somehow gotten around and Thomas was quick to appear in front of me. He had a crutch with him and a bandage poorly wrapped around his leg.

I meet him the rest of the way as I let go of Newt and stand up. I hug Thomas so happy that we were able to make up. I'm glad he didn't hate me and had forgiven me, I think.

"Just, curious you know, but who wrapped your bandage?"

"Minho."-Thomas

"Well that makes sense. Let me fix your bandage Thomas that way it can heal better. The bullet isn't still in there right?"

I helped Thomas sit down as I opened my backpack. My backpack was no longer ever going to be out of my sight. Although I was starting to get worried that I will run out of materials soon.

I fixed Thomas' bandage and stood back up. Both Newt and Thomas moved so that I was in the middle.

"I'm going to be saying this a lot, but thank you for forgiving me."

"You may not like to hear this but Teresa helped me see that you were right to make that choice."-Thomas

"How did she do that?"

"She told me something I never knew about you."-Thomas

Seeing how Thomas didn't have his memories back I was curious as to what good thing Teresa could have said about me, we mutually hated each other so I never thought Teresa would say something nice.

"She told me how you have always looked out for us. You always were worried for us and were quick to be there and Newt had told me about you saving his life once."-Thomas

"Ah. So she told you about that."

"Do you not want anyone to know?"-Thomas

"No, I'm just surprised that Teresa said something, somewhat nice about me."

"She wasn't that bad of a person."-Thomas

"Wasn't?"

"She saved me Amethyst and that caused her to die."-Thomas

"Oh."

There was an awkward silence, you usually expect someone to say something to comfort and tell the other person you understand how they feel but I couldn't get myself to say those things.

"You know, maybe, if Teresa wasn't so stuck up about WICKED and such. Maybe, and I mean maybe, I wouldn't hold me up to that, but perhaps we could have been friends."

"You two had strong opposing opinions."-Thomas

It says a lot about Newt and Thomas then. Thomas liked Teresa, someone who had dreams and was realistic. She was someone who wanted to do the best for society. It shows that Thomas liked people who were like a hero in his eyes, they would do something for everyone else. I wasn't really like that, I had hope, I liked to be unrealistic. I liked to save only the few people around me. Which meant that Newt likes people who he could trust. People he knows he can rely on to either be there next to him or just give him a bit of positivity.

"Yeah, I thought it was family before girlfriends though."

He smacks my head and I laugh. Newt places a hand on the back of my neck where Thomas gently had hit me.

"We will be heading out in a couple of days. Just wanted to tell you."-Thomas

I nod and Thomas leaves so it's just me and Newt. I turn to him and I just stare at him. My world was finally starting to turn to the bright side. The years of suffering with just my hope to carry me on has paid off. I looked down towards his lips, when was the last time I ever kissed him? It's been so long, would it be alright, or is he still adjusting to me? I decided to approach this slowly. I leaned in until our foreheads touched. I stayed that way for a moment and slowly moved closer. Newt was doing the same to me, we were both hesitant to kiss as if scared we would find out we weren't made for one another. I put my hand to the back of Newt's head where his soft hair tickled the tips of my fingers. There was no feeling greater than when I finally kissed him. The butterflies, the happiness, the security I had felt. Of course I had always felt safe when he was nearby. As long as Newt was alive I will have nothing to fear. I've already stopped death, so what could stand in the way of us any more.