⚠️ TW: mentions of self harm,bad eating habits and abuse aswell as nightmares and homophobia⚠️
( Shuichi's father is a b1tch )
12pm
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Friday/Saturday
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Kokichi's room
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//Ouma's POV//
After a while we finished finished dinner. Shuichi ate well but he was probably trying to be polite since he was at someone else's house.. at least he ate! Anyway dad gave him some spare clothes wich were a dark blue oversized hoodie and knee length black shorts. I hadn't seen shuichi with anything but pants on before and now i could see that he had a lot more scars that just on his wrists wich were still bandaged up..
"Hey kichi, where am i sleeping?"...ah.. "u-uh" before i could panic over that daiki came trough the door "Shuichi-kun! I have some spare blankets and pillows! Also there's a pump and a blow up mattress in ko's closet" he smiled and put the things down "thanks! And again thank you for letting me stay here" shuichi picked the things up and smiled "sure thing! Come over any time your a lovely boy! Anyway good night kids!" Shuichi waved and daiki walked out.
"R-right i-ill h-help you blow up t-the mattress" "sure! But ill do most of the wo-"
RIIIIIINGGGG
Shuichi's phone rang "a-ah sorry i have to answer" i nodded and watched him as he put the phone to his ear..expect he was trembling.
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//Saihara's POV//
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12:15 am
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Kokichi's room
"H-hello m-mr s-sai-" "WHERE THE F*CK *hic* ARE YOU F*CKIN' BASTARD?!" I was hoping kokichi didnt hear but knowning how my anxiety triggers by my fathers yelling he could probably tell something was up "S-sorry father i-i just u-um I'm with k-kokichi-chan and i-" "YOU'RE WITH THAT BOY AGAIN?! ARE YOU BEING A FUCKIN' F@660T AGAIN? I TOLD YOU I WILL BEAT THAT SHIT OUT OF YOU IF YOU DONT STOP FUKIN' SL*T" "R-right i-ill be h-h-home tomorrow" "YOU BETTER FUKIN' BE SLUT'
*beep!*
I could tell my breath was very short...probably on the verge of a break down, If I'm good at anything it's suppressing emotions but breakdowns are different. Some make me sob and do irrational things..like in the bathroom a month and something ago. Some just fill my head with the voices until my mood switches. It changes every so often since I have cyclothymia. But sometimes a breakdown triggers mood change, then there's ones i just smile and sob usually looking for human support but well, there's no one to do that for me.
Right now i cant do any of those things so maybe if i try suppress it i will be fine..
"S-shuichi a-are you ok?" I felt kokichi's Small hand on my shoulder. But right now i was jumpy "M-mhm! H-how about we start on the mattress?" I walked over to the closet and pulled out what i assume to be the pump and mattress.
Usually forced smiling helps suppress breakdowns so i was trying that. I was still shaking though.
Kokichi didn't question anything so we layed down and tried to sleep. Of course i didnt.
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//3rd person POV//
3 am
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Kokichi's room
I was in Concrete room with nothing but a small caged window.
It felt like i hadn't been fed for ages.
I was alone in the middle of the room with both my wrists were cuffed and stuck to the ground with two ball shaped weights.
I was alone but someone's voice was slowly creeping up in my brain getting louder and louder.
It was my mothers voice.
That wretched woman keept haunting me.
No one will ever love a bitch like you
You're telling me you're messed up like your disgusting father?
That bitch never loved me.
Disappointment
You're nothing but a waste of space.
Disgusting.
Bitch
F@660T
Her voice got louder and louder as the wall kept closing in.
Closer. Louder
Closer. Louder
Closer.louder
Kokichi woke up breathing heavily with tears falling down their face.
"Kichi-chan? Are you ok what happened" shuichi was awake and now next to his bed and holding their shoulder "s-s-sorry i uh i *sniff* had a n-nightmare.. *sniff* and u-uh it was um about..*sniff* a trig——ger and t-the walls were *sniff* clos——ing in and m-m-my mo——ther was-" shuichi got up on kokichi's bed and hugged him tight, kokichi crying into his hoodie "shhh, kichi its alright, its ok she's not here. You're safe i swear" shuichi stroked kokichi's hair and softly sang their favourite song
"I don't want to set the world on fire~
I just want to start a flame in your heart
In my heart I have but one desire
And that one is you~
No other will do~
I've lost all ambition for worldly acclaim
I just want to be the one you loved
And with your admission that you feel the same
I'll have reached the goal I'm dreaming of
Believe me
I don't want to set the world on fire
I just want to start a flame in your heart"
Kokichi's eyes slowly closed with a soft smile spread across his face; In a warm embrace with shuichi. Shuichi slowly layed down and put his head just above kokichi still holding them close to him chest and closed his eyes to the soft breathing coming from the small boy.
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