Lover| IT

From the same place

E.K

I'm not listening to Myra. I'm sat on her bed, staring at the scar that randomly appeared on my hand. I don't know how long I've had it for and I didn't even realise I forgot about it. I also can't stop thinking about Richie Tozier. He seemed familiar and the name rings a few bells but I just don't know where I know him from. With his stupid oversized Hawaiian shirt and his glasses that definitely need replacing because they're being held together by a piece of tape that's stuck around the middle of them. His stupid messy hair. Okay, Eddie, what the hell. You just met the guy. Stop insulting him.

"Eddie bear!" Myra says and I snap out of my thoughts. I look at her. God is she just like my mother. From the way she looks, to the way she acts, to that stupid little nickname.

Myra is my girlfriend. We've been together for just under a year and my mom approves of the relationship so that's good I guess. I don't know. I wouldn't say I'm in love with her. It's weird. I feel like I have to be with her. Being away from my mom has sort of driven me crazy. I should be happy with the freedom but I just ended up dating someone just like her.

"Are you ignoring me, Eddie?" Myra whines. I sigh. She does that just before crying. All she does is whine and cry and make me feel guilty for making her whine and cry.

"Huh? No, of course I'm not. I've just got a lot going on right now." I say and I know I've said the wrong thing from the way her face contorts with confusion.

If I'm being honest, I don't have any friends here. I struggled to make any the first week and if you don't have your friendship group by then then you're stuck without friends for the entire college experience. I guess I was lucky to bump into Myra. Being alone probably made me want to date her. I wouldn't have dated her. We don't seem good on paper and we aren't good together in real life.

"With what? You don't have any friends." She states and I roll my eyes. I need to get out of this relationship as soon as possible. But I can't. I'm too scared. If I do my mom will definitely yell at me. "You let a good thing go, Eddie bear." She would say to me.

Myra looks at me and I let out another sigh before grabbing my brief case and heading towards the door. We don't share a dorm. Mine is a few blocks away from hers. She has a room mate where as I don't. I like my own company.

"Where are you going?!" She whines again, standing up and following me to the door, which I open.

"To bed. I'm tired." I reply and it's a lie. I'm heading down to the library to find out anything I can about Richie Tozier. They have all of the documents in there for where people live. It's behind the desk and the librarian loves me so she would probably give the documents to me.

"Well, will you see me tomorrow?" Myra asks. She has some serious attachment issues. If I don't tell her I will see her tomorrow, she will worry all day.

"Of course." I say and I allow her to kiss me before I leave her dormitory.

I head out of her dorm building and take the long way to the library. The college campus is really beautiful and I like to take long walks around it. The trees are tall and the air is fresh, what else could I want? I'm a hypochondriac, this manages to calm me down a lot of the time. I always do this walk after visiting Myra. She just knows how to agitate me or make me panic or feel worthless.

The library on campus is massive and I love wondering around the endless bookshelves. I never really read much as a child, mostly comics, but I enjoy reading now. It's an outlet for me. An escape.

"Hello Felicity." I greet the librarian quietly as this is a library. I'm going to respect that. I can be kind of a loud person, even if I don't seem like it. I also have a short fuse and can get angry super quick.