Summer with swayLA

Part 2 chapter 26

I was laying on the couch now scrolling through tiktok refreshing every now and again to see some people begin to like and comment on my post. It wasn't long before a few of the boys came to find me.

Anthony-"you did it!!"
Blake-"she posted" he said smiling and tapping my shoulder before coming and jumping on the couch next to me.

Anthony-"well done sav" he also said smiling.
Savannah-"do you think I've done the right thing?"
Blake-"yeah I do. I think it will give you a sense of responsibility and normality back. You might not realise but you could be helping thousands of people"
Savannah-"yeah that's true... I've set up a YouTube channel as well. I'm going to make a video later today."
Anthony-"sounds good. What you planning on posting?"
Savannah-"josh said something about where I have been and some things that have gone on. Nothing to detailed just some basics and maybe tapping on my mental health."

Anthony-"like I said earlier just don't push yourself. Only put out what you feel comfortable with."
Savannah-"I will ant. Thank you" I said with a small smile before kicking my feet up and standing straight.

Savannah-"well see you later."  I said before leaving the room and heading upstairs to my own.

I sat down in front of the camera josh had kindly given me before thinking out how I'm actually going to do this.

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Savannah-"ughhh" I said pushing it away out of view. It had been 20 minutes of me sitting here doing nothing.

I was to caught up in thinking thorough the video I hadn't even noticed Noah knock and open the door slightly.

Noah-"hey...you alright?" I jumped at his sudden presence before turning and facing him.
Savannah-"yeah just trying to make a video... did you need something?" I questioned resting my back against my bed.
Noah-"yeah but it can wait" he answered taking a seat next to me on the floor

We sat in silence for a few moments before he reached over and grabbed the camera looking at it.

Noah-"nice camera."
Savannah-"it's Josh's old one"
Noah-"ahhh"

He placed it back on my desk before looking over at me.

Noah-"are you sure your ready for this?"
Savannah-"I think so... I did until everyone kept asking that question. Makes me feel kinda I don't know on edge? Weak? That you all think I'm about to break at any given point."
Noah-"oh sorry. Non of us wanted you to feel like that. We just wanted you to ya know feel like you weren't being forced or made to do any of that."
Savannah-"yeah I understand that part of it... I need to do this though"
Noah-"I completely agree. I think It would help you in so many different ways. Plus the video josh wanted you to do would maybe help you release any built up emotions"

He leaned back against my bed before putting his arm over my shoulder.

Noah-"you do know your really strong right? Like you've been through so much and yet your still fighting. I'm proud to even be able to know you never mind call you a friend and Someone I view as a little sister"

I lay my head on his shoulder as I sat and thought through everything he just said.

Savannah-"do you really think that?"
Noah-"honestly hand on my heart yes I do"
Savannah-"thank you Noah" I said shuffling closer before I hugged him. I felt my eyes begin to gloss over but I wouldn't let myself cry.

Noah-"okay... do you think your ready to make this video? If you want I can sit here and help you through it or I could sit out of camera?"
Savannah-"yeah I do and do you think you could sit out of camera I think I kinda need to have some sort of independence on this"

He nodded shuffling out of frame whilst he set the camera up. I took a long deep breath in before looking up to see him smiling and nodding his head.

Savannah-"hey guys... so as you probably know I've been away for awhile" I stoped for second and saw Noah In the corner of my eye giving me a supporting look.

Savannah-"well one I'm back now and two I just want to explain a bit of it" I felt my eyes prick and begin to glass over.

Maybe I wasn't ready for this. Maybe they were right and it was to soon. Maybe I'm just not cut out for this YouTube shit.

I felt my breathing pick up and begin to become uneven. Noah picked up on it quickly coming into view now and pulling my shoulders into a hug before I heard him talking to someone on the phone?!

Not helpful

However the next thing that happened was. Bryce came into the room and took me in his arms before whispering sweet things in my ear to calm me down.

I felt myself starting to calm down slowly and begin to feel bryce trace patterns on my shoulder and arm.

Bryce-"it's okay baby... your safe" he began to whisper holding me close to his chest.

When I had finally calmed down he shut the camera off saying maybe I shouldn't try everything all at once.

He had a point I had already pushed myself far enough with going back to social media I didn't need to do it all at once.

We soon moved of the floor to the bed and Bryce urged me closer to him if that was even physically possible. Then it struck me that Noah had come in here earlier for my help on something and I hadn't been able to help him.

Savannah-"I need to help Noah"
Bryce-"what now?" He chuckled.
Savannah-"yeah he came in here for help originally but helped me instead"
Bryce-"okay let's go find him then."