Summer with swayLA

Part 2 chapter 23

It's been three weeks and let's just say some shit has gone down.

First of the boys began to get more and more worried about me which was understandable I was having constant nightmares and would refuse to leave the house at one point. It got worse and worse that's when ant suggested therapy. Of course I declined the first few offers but after we talked it over he somehow got me to go to my first session three weeks ago. I went three times on my first week but now I'm just doing one session a week.

Second thing was the police and trying to catch my so called friends. Well that didn't start to too good obviously cause they saw I was missing and ran... well that's what I thought until Thomas, Mia Tayler and Nate got threatened by them two weeks ago. They said they would find out where I was and make my life ten times worse if I didn't go back to them now. Personally I think they were threatening the wrong people especially with Mia there. She was pulled behind Thomas back but wasn't going to shy away that easily...

Tayler said they better watch how they talk to him and Thomas politely asked them to leave them alone. I winced at the thought of now my friends being threatened and it being my fault it was hard to deal with.

That Leads on to thirdly I may have been cutting more... I felt extremely guilty for all the shit I've put the boys through and now on top of that having their life's also at risk cause of me. the boys refused to let me go back to them, wouldn't let me out of their sight if I went out of the house. It just added to the pressure and made me do it more. I regret doing it every time but I come back as some sort of stress relief.

Okay and finally the police. I've been in and out of that station more than I ever hoped I would be. trying to give as much information as I could to the cops. It was working in our favour though cause by the end of the second week they had Livvy and Ben locked up. Turns out they have been on the hunt for this gang for awhile and we'll have finally been able to catch a few of them with my help. Preston Kylie and Hunter were still out there and I knew until they were locked up I wouldn't feel safe... it was just a waiting game.

Thats you up to date on how my life's going.

Today I'm back in therapy... it's supposed to help me but with me not opening up like I'm supposed to do it doesn't achieve that well that's what I thought. However they did get stuff about my nightmares that are reoccurring a couple of weeks ago and since then she's begun to help me think through why these could be happening. I'm no therapist but I'm pretty sure it's to do with being kidnapped and made fearful of not only my life but my friends life's to.

However in the end she did get me to open up way more than I had anticipated. maybe more than I would of wanted to. I actually am kinda warming up to her; she doesn't seem to bad. It's Hard to really trust people after, well a lot of the shit that's happens in my life over the past few years.

Anthony came to pick me up from therapy and I was happy to see him as soon as he got out of the car. I gave him a hug as soon as I saw him. It was a weird feeling I haven't felt it in a long time. I missed it.

I think it's all finally sinking in that I'm back with them... it's taken awhile but we are getting there. I burst out crying when he finally wrapped his arms around me, yeah it's definitely catching up to me.

I was hit with a whole bunch of feelings all at once and it's the first time I've been able to feel this many in a very long time. I'm definitely coming back to her for a few more weeks, month or however long it takes to get back to the old savannah. I've finally got my hope back with this whirl of emotions that I'm grasping onto whilst hugging ant.

It may be only a small part of the old me... still not a lot of emotions but more than I've felt in a while and I need this more. If this women can help me out this much over a month I really want to come back, especially after seeing the look on ants face when I pulled away. He needs this too.He had glazed over eyes and he gently rubbed under mine when he looked down at me.

Anthony-"what was that about?"
Savannah-"I'm not sure... I just feel a tad bit more like my old self then I did a few weeks back and I'm really thankful to be back with you"
Anthony-"good cause I have missed it and I'm very thankful your back to" he said smiling down at me before flinging his arm over my shoulder and taking me to his car.

I'm not saying in no means am I back to my old self. No. It's going to take time, and I do think a lot of it... it's going to hurt and be a process that's got to be followed but hopefully some day, I hope soon, I will feel more like myself.

The savannah I finally learned to love and accept like all these people over here did.
The savannah that people saw potential in and helped her get to where she wanted to be really. And I know one day with the help I'm getting not only from my therapist but also those around me I will get to that stage. I can't wait to be her again but it's got to take time...

Anthony didn't stop smiling the whole way home. I'm glad I saw that in him, he hasn't smiled much since the night he got me back. He smiled cried and shouted that night but hasn't really smiled much around me since then. I've missed his smile just as much as he's missed mine.

A/n I hope you enjoyed it! If you did vote comment or whatever you want 😌🤍.

I've just been put back into another lockdown soooo hopefully I can write more for you guys. Hopefully! Anyways thanks for reading.