Summer with swayLA

Part 2 chapter 24

We pulled up outside of the sway house and as soon as we stepped out of the car we heard josh and Bryce shouting from inside the house. Of course. I let out a faint chuckle whilst we walked over to the
Front door.

They were doing some bit for a new video they had coming out this week and stopped as soon as me and ant walked through the door. I wish they wouldn't, it would be nice for the normality. Bryce took off from his seat and strode over to me before wrapping his arms around my waist.

Bryce-"you okay?"
Savannah-"mhm I'm good. Are you okay?"
Bryce-"better now your back... did you have a good session?"
Savannah-"yeah actually I did probably my best one yet"

That took him by surprise as he pulled away slightly to look at me. He looked up and over to ant who shrugged with a smile on his face. Bryce looked between us for a moment before leaning down and kissing me.

Bryce-"I'm so happy your making progress with this sav"
Savannah-"I am too." I said with a a small smile on my face.

I'm nowhere near done with my therapy sessions. I'm making baby steps and that's okay. I have a smile on my face and I've made some people proud today which is just encouraging me to carry on with this and to not give up.

When Bryce finally let go I made my way over to the kitchen only to hear him and josh start up on their shouting. They soon enough took it outside to continue whatever they were doing and so did a few other boys.

Jaden-"hey" he said walking into the kitchen and seeing me sat on the counter top.
Savannah-"hi"
Jaden-"ya know I've missed seeing you sat up there, especially when there are perfectly good chairs to sit on"
Savannah-"yeah yeah yeah... it's better up here."
Jaden-"okay Fine.... how you feeling"
Savannah-"alright Jae."
Jaden-"you do know that offer is always there to talk to me...I've been in some pretty dark places and I don't want you feeling the same."
Savannah-"thanks. I know. I just... never mind"
Jaden-"no go on it's okay to talk about what your feeling. I might be able to help"
Savannah-"I don't know what I'm feeling... this therapy things helping me feel certain things again but I haven't felt much in the last couple of weeks at all... I don't know what I'm supposed to do Jae" I said finally breaking down. Feeling small tears trickle down my cheek

Jaden-"that's okay savannah you went through some shit and still came out the other end fighting.. your going to feel certain ways and sometimes nothing at all... what happened to you was scary and your instinct was to shut emotions out to help you cope with it, your just taking baby steps to getting them back. It will get better I promise you sav." He finished off by hugging me and lifting me down from the counter.

Jaden-"now come on the boys will be back in, in a second and we need to get those tears cleaned up" I gave him a nod with a weak smile before making my way into the bathroom.

I'm glad I have gotten part of something of my chest...I might not be able to tell him about what I have done to myself but at least I opened up to him a bit. It felt quite good actually to talk to someone about part of it. Especially since I know jaden has gone through stuff similar, it's helped take some of the stress of my shoulders. I know I can talk to him about any of that now and I know he would listen to me if I needed him to.

I washed my face off before wiping under my eyes to get rid of the tear stains. I stopped dead in my tracks after leaving the bathroom and hearing a loud crash coming from the kitchen. I felt a sudden wave of uncertainty and sickness before picking my feet back up and looking around the corner.

I peaked my head slightly inside to see what was happening and was met with Quinton sitting on the floor surrounded by a few pots and pans. Blake had noticed me in the doorway and urged me inside.

Blake-"are you okay sav?"
Savannah-"yeah... was just checking the noise out"
Anthony-"oh shit. You weren't scared were you?" he said shooting from his position over to me and hugging me.
Savannah-"I was alright ant..." I may have lied slightly but I can't have them thinking I'm scared of everything and I know by the look on Quintons face he already felt guilty I didn't want to add to the pressure.

Quinton-"sav I'm sorry"
Savannah-"it's fine Quinton. I'm not scared"
Quinton-"I'm sorry anyways"
Savannah-"everything's fine guys stop worrying."

Jaden glanced over at me and have me a sympathetic smile like he knew this was affecting me before he changed the subject.

Jaden-"how about a movie?"
Bryce-"yeah good idea" he answered seeing what Jaden was getting at.

All the boys agreed and Bryce came to my side slipping his hands down to my hips and holding my back against him. He leaned down and began to whisper in my ear.

Bryce-"now are you sure your okay?"
Savannah-"mhm" was all i responded with.
Bryce-"I know you've been crying" he stated simply like he had on one of my first encounters with him.
Savannah-"okay yeah I have"
Bryce-"wanna tell me why"
Savannah-"nope" I said remembering the time he pulled me into the kitchen on one of my first days here to have the same conversation. With that being my answer back then as well.

Bryce-"I know what your doing" he said chuckling, tickling my sides.

I let out a faint laugh as I turned to face him. Giving him an innocent look.

Savannah-"hmm and what might that be?"
Bryce-"your doing what you did back then... is your next statement going to be about us all hating you and you being a terrible person? Cause you know it's not true"
Savannah-"hey to my Defense that's what it felt like back then."
Bryce-"yeah and what about now?"
Savannah-"hmmm I'm surrounded by people who generally love and care for me, my amazing boyfriend who has always stuck by my side and my brother who hasn't once gave up on me so now I feel loved" I said with a proud smile to the boy in front of me.

Bryce-"well I'm glad it's changed" he said bopping my nose before kissing it lightly. Before he grabbed my hand and led us out of the room.