Summer with swayLA

Part 2 chapter 8

I looked around and saw two corpses laying on the floor in their own blood. I felt my stomach churn and eyes water as Preston grabbed something from the desk they were standing next to. I looked around until I found a small trash can by the side of the desk.

That's when all my insides just came flooding out into the can. I could hear Preston tutting in disapproval but all I could see were the two men laying their lifeless. I threw up another time until majority of the food I had left in me had come up. I sat up facing Preston who shook his head grabbing my wrist and yanking me up.

Preston-"done?"
Savannah-"mhm" I nodded as he yanked us out of the room and down the corridor.
He came to a stop holding out one of his two guns to me.
Preston-"take it"
Savannah-"what no! I don't want it!"
Preston-"savannah does It look like I care what you want" he said pulling the other gun out and holding it close to me.

I took ahold of the gun and he lowered his. I breathed out as we carried on walking down the corridor towards the exit. As the light came Into view of the outside a person in a mask stepped out in front off us.

Preston-"your turn to prove your ready for this"
Savannah-"WHAT?!"
Preston-"shoot him"
Savannah-"no Preston I can't"
Preston-"you can and you will" he said raising the gun in his hand to the back of my head.
Preston-"now savannah or I will shoot you then him"

I gulped down holding my hand with the gun up.I shakily took my aim and closed my eyes firing the gun. I gulped down opening one eye only to see the man holding his arm. Preston didn't think it was good enough as he urged me to shoot him again.

Preston-"last chance savannah."
Savannah-"I shot him!"
Preston-"yeah and not good enough you hit his arm that's not going to do anything is it"

He pushed the cold metal further into the back of my head and I gulped down the lump and I felt my tears spill out of my eyes. I looked over at the man who was just holding his arm. The next thing I know the trigger of the gun had been pulled again with the help of Preston's hand. The bullet went straight into the man. I wanted to fall to my knees and just cry but Preston ended up picking me up and throwing me over his shoulder.

He urged us out of the building and back Into the van. He pushed me in and seated me down on the seat. I brought my legs up to my chest, breathing heavily. I couldn't even speak or look at anyone. I had basically just killed a man. I have fucking just killed a man.

I shuddered in my own skin hating myself ten times more then I already did. I wanted to throw up again and Livvy must of been able to tell as she handed me over a bucket. I threw the remaining contents up from this morning and last night. Once I had I was just throwing up stomach acid. It stung and hurt but I couldn't stop doing so. I was wiping my eyes and sitting back every now and then.

The others slowly returned back to the van and Preston drove of with me still vomiting in the back. Hunter was rubbing my back every now and then, I knew non of them knew how to deal with anything that involved sympathy and it just made me feel worse.

I wouldn't speak to anyone once I was down throwing up. I just say their with my eyes closed Thinking back to the situation. It's my fault that mans dead. I should of taken the bullet but Preston would of killed him anyways. He also did pull the trigger the second time around.

It was all no use. No matter how hard I tired to convince myself it wasn't fully my fault or I couldn't of done anything about it, didn't matter cause it didn't work.

Savannah-"I can't take this" I finally whispered after not speaking to anyone the whole time.
Hunter-"sav?"
Savannah-"I can't take this anymore" I said slightly louder.

They all looked at me confused. I would of to too be fair to them. I was basically speaking nonsense to them. Not to me though.

TW-there's going to be things in the next lot of chapters that could trigger people I just wanted to let everyone know. It does carry on throughout these next few chapters.

We pulled up back to the house and I ran inside and up to my so called room. I took a deep breath running the shower. I grabbed my razor of the side and began to dismantle it taking the blade out carefully.

I looked at the shiny silver thing in my hand and sat down on the floor of the bathroom. I closed my eyes as I skimmed it across my wrist leaving a light mark. I looked down and saw the line I had created before running the blade over it again but a bit harder. This time I could feel the blood dripping out but I just moved down and did it yet again.

I heaved in a heavy breath and quickly sat up running over to the shower and rinsing the blood off. I looked down with more tears forming as they fell into my chest. I heaved In more breaths as I heard Preston shouting me down the stairs.

I stood straight up throwing on a hoodie to cover my arm and turning the shower off. I looked back at the blade lying on my floor and quickly locked it up. I looked around the room and hit it under some sanitary products that had been placed in here. I gulped down the lump that had grown in my throat before dusting my clothes down. Wincing at the pain rushing through my arm.

I walked out of the room and down the stairs to see them all sitting in the living room. They all looked over to me some looking a bit worried more than others. I gave them a confused look before I was told to sit down on the couch.

A/N thanks for reading this chapter. Thank you Kalester13 and Iwuvmen for the idea on this chapter and the ones to come!