Summer with swayLA

Part 2 chapter 21

We had arrived at the restaurant but obviously Hollywood bloody fix had found us. I shook my head as the boys pointed it out.

Savannah-"I can't do this..." I mumbled. Being stuck inside with little contact to the outside world fucks you up. Especially with the people I had to spend that time with and I definitely wasn't ready for whatever shit he was about to throw in my direction.

Bryce-"shall we just go somewhere else?"
Savannah-"I...erm... you shouldn't have to do that."
Anthony-"listen sav We don't mind at all and if you really want to eat here we will cover you up and ignore him and any questions of you will be shut down?"
Savannah-"I- okay" I gave in looking at the boys behind me who all had that sympathetic smile. Ughh I hated that they all had sympathy for me... was I really showing how much this had affected me?

I pushed those thoughts away as jaden opened his door to get out followed by kio and ant. I gulped down as Bryce lay his hand on my thigh.

Bryce-"ants going to get you out and we will do our best to get you inside as quick as possible alright?"
Savannah-"yeah thank you" I murmured keeping my head low before I pulled the hoodie hood over it.

He got out and before I knew it ant and Bryce where getting me out of the car to take me into the restaurant. It Made me feel kinda useless but it was better than having fletcher force questions down my throat...I think I spoke to soon.

Fletcher-"hey guys... is that savannah?"
Kio-"we are going to eat"
Jaden-"yeah don't really want to answer questions at the moment"
Fletcher-"ahh okay but is that savannah?"

I felt my hand tighten around Bryce who had his jaw clenched. He turned to jaden and nodded him over and the next thing I knew jaden was by my side and Bryce had gone. I couldn't even turn my head to look in their direction and just held onto ants arm and now jadens aswell. They both took me inside where I could just hear Bryce saying things like 'they said no questions' and 'why can't people let us have privacy... is it so damn hard!'

I did feel bad for fletcher he didn't know what was going on but also he should of respected us and what we had asked for.

A few moments Bryce and kio entered the restaurant and took a seat with us, Bryce falling down next to me kio opposite us.

Anthony-"you didn't do anything stupid right?"
Kio-"don't worry I didn't let him" he steps in as Bryce sighs.
Bryce-"I just want to protect her now... to much shit has happened to you Sav and I don't want that to happen anymore"
Savannah-"thanks Bryce" I whispered Laying my head onto his shoulder.

We ordered our food and the boys made conversation, I didn't particularly feel like having much of one just a few here and there often with jaden checking I'm okay.

We left the restaurant without any paparazzi in sight and got into the car as quick as humanly possible. I looked out the window as everyone else climbed into the car and we began to drive.

I had to go back to the police station to finish questioning and confirm my case on them. As I was talking to the police officers all the boys who came to breakfast sat waiting outside for me to come out.

In the end the officers went out of the room quite hurriedly to go find Livvy Ben and Preston. They apparently needed to be questioned as soon as possible as some 'new' evidence has come up.

I mumbled what they had just told me to the boys when I exited the questioning room. The all gave me a smile telling me how good this all was that I would get my justice Against these people. Bryce told me how proud he was off me and that I was very brave.I did gave them all a weak smile before asking if we could go back home.

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Back at the sway house the boys all where running wild just like usual and It felt like it was too much for me to take. In the end i left them doing the shit they were doing for a YouTube video going up to my room and sitting down in the corner of my bed.

I felt thoughts upon thoughts pile up in my head and I just wanted to breakdown and cry. Why can't I go back to the way I was before all of this? Be the friend sister and girlfriend I was. I can't do this pretend I'm okay and be strong for these people when Im Breaking constantly inside.

TW these trigger warnings are going to be for a while so I'm advance now all of my next chapters might have similar things in

I sat up and ran into my bathroom looking over my cupboards until I found a razor. I gulped down before going to the door and locking it. I sat back against the door resting my head against the wood before dismantling it and getting the blade out.

I rolled my sleeves up until I saw my last marks... taking in a deep breath I gently traced a line against my skin before going sharper and adding force. I felt the blood pool out but couldn't even get the courage to look down at it.

How could I do this in the house with the people that care the most about me? I'm hurting myself when I shouldn't be...

I felt my eyes gloss over before I moved it down slightly and did the exact same process again.

I may be back where I belong but it doesn't feel like I should be. Maybe I deserved to be with Preston and everyone else. Maybe that was my punishment for being a shitty person...

A/n- hope you all had a good holidays I just wanted to say this book has over 200k views and that's insane so thank you !!!

I hope you have all had a good Christmas... I won't be updating on Thursday again as it's New Year's Eve and maybe Saturday depending on my motivation. Updates should be back to normal after this week.

Oh and last time i asked who you would like a new book on I have a lot of suggestions for vinnie or jaden, so leave them below again... I also had some people mentioned/message some of the one direction boys to me so if you would like a book on them let me know cause I'm down for that any day!

Im not sure when this new book will be out only cause I have big exams coming up in January/February so might do It for February/beginning of march instead, not sure...

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