Summer with swayLA

Part 2 chapter 11

I shot into the bathroom throwing up the contents I had for breakfast. Great here we go again. I loosely managed to tie my hair up before I threw up anything else left inside of me.

I sat back flushing the toilet. I lay my head against the bath and let out a tiny sigh. Did he really just use me for fame? Did Anthony know? Did Anthony let him?

As these thoughts swirled around in my head as I felt my eyes gloss over and a nausea feeling wash over me. I think I would of thrown up again if I had anything left in me too throw up.

I quickly stood up looking around the room til I laid my eyes on the cupboard that was holding my blade. I took a deep breath in before walking over to it and grabbing it out of it.

I slowly, began to roll my sleeves up looking at the two marks already on my arm. I turned to my other wrist and took a deep breath in holding onto it as I yet again marked my wrist.

I let go of my breath I was holding wiping under my eyes as I did so. I took in another deep breath but slowly tried to steady out my breathing. I looked down at the line before closing my eyes and doing it yet again.

I wasn't blaming the boys for this at all. It wasn't their fault I felt like this or got so attached to them. It's my own. I shouldn't of loved him, I shouldn't of cared. I should of gone there and left still not caring not making a bond with a single one of them. But I didn't. So it's my own fault.

I was about to clean the blade and my wrist as I heard the front door go. I quickly stood up hiding the blade whilst 'washing my hands.' I couldn't let anyone here know what I was doing. Not a chance in hell.

I took in a deep breath scurrying around the room before I walked out of my bedroom and to the top of the staircase.

Kylie-"is she still asleep?"
Hunter-"no she's just in her room"
Ben-"oh why she not hanging out with you"
Hunter-"not sure we talked a bit about Bryce and she just decided she was going upstairs"
Livvy-"what did you tell her" they continued to question Hunter on my presence as I stood at the top of the stairs trying to not be noticed.
Hunter-"what you guys said to... that they don't care and we're using her"
Preston-"did she believe it?"
Hunter-"think so..."
Kylie-"great she might be easier to work with now"
Livvy-"mhm. Hopefully"

I sucked in a sharp breath turning on my heels and walking back into my room. They fucking lied! I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say or how to act.

Their were so many thoughts running through my mind and my breath began to hitch and I felt the room around me spin. Fucking hell not now. My eyes were watering as tears spilled out and I started to find it hard to breath.

I sat down on the floor near my bed and tried to slow the pace of my breathing down as best I could but before I knew it it was dark.

I'm 99% sure I passed out. If I didn't I don't have a fucking clue what happened to me. It was now dark outside and I felt sick yet again.

I got myself up of the ground steadily before creeping out of my room. I looked over to check nobody had heard me and began to creep down the stairs. I went straight to the room where they keep the phones. I looked around for the drawer and until I found a key to open the cupboard with them inside. I sucked in a sharp breath hitting me with a sting before grabbing my phone. I turned around and swiped up on my phone looking over at some of the messages I had received.

I felt my eyes begin to sting as I started to type back a few words only to have my phone ripped out of my hands. As I was about to shout somebody put their hand over my mouth. My tears began to spread down my cheeks as I was dragged down the stairs into the basement to be faced by an angry Preston.

Preston-"what the fuck do you think your doing?" He questioned pushing me down onto the floor.
Savannah-"I just wanted it speak to people back home"
Preston-"I thought you knew that wasn't aloud savannah..." he paused for a moment before continuing "Hmmm what shall we do to you then"
Savannah-"shout at me and make me stay in my room?" I asked with a glint of hope in my eyes as he just laughed at the option.
Preston-"wouldn't be a punishment." He took a handful of my hair and began to comb it out.
Preston-"it's pretty long isn't it?"
Savannah-"yeah" I mumbled.

He used the handful he had to force me up and I let out a Yelp.
Preston-"see if this was any of the others it would be an easy punishment but for you... I think we will start of with something that won't hurt you to much"

I gave him a confused look as he turned around and grabbed a pair of scissors. I gulped down as he came closer to me grabbing another piece of my hair and cutting it below shoulder length. I jolted away from him sending a glare in his direction.

Preston-"savannah get back here now" he warned but I shook my head. He placed the scissors down and began to stride forward in my direction. I began backing away until I hit the wall. I gulped down as he wet his lips.

He swiftly brought his arm up and smacked it straight across my face. I winced feeling tears leave my eyes. He turned my around grabbing my arms and pinching them slightly.

Savannah-"Preston stop!" I begged.

He ignored my begging and gave my back a small slap. This didn't hurt as much until he made his was down to my ass. He lightly grabbed it before slapping it.

Savannah-"I have a fucking boyfriend!" I cried out more angry now squirming to get away from him.

He didn't hesitate to quickly slam me down into the wall before switching me back over so I was facing him. He grabbed a hold of my throat causing me to loose all air and as I choked out as he leaned down towards my ear.

Preston-"you follow the rules and do as I say. Next time will be worse trust me on that"

He let go of me throwing me down on the ground like a rag doll. As I curled up in a ball letting out my sobs.

Bryces pov

We have had hardly any contact with savannah this whole time. It was strange. It only made me feel worse when she said she wouldn't even be messaging the little bit she did.

I had thoughts that she no longer wanted to be with me or that we were just going to end up drifting apart. It hurt me and the boys knew it too. Every chance they got they would take my mind of off savannah, wasn't much use but at least the effort was there.

Anthony even had private talks to me about it and he agreed something weird was going on. He had spoke to his mom and got the same answer savannah gave us 'she's with her friends' I call bullshit but what can you do when the person you love won't even speak to you properly.