Summer with swayLA

Chapter 14

A/n this chapter contains references to rape. I'm sorry if this affects you, I would recommend skipping the chapter if your not comfortable with it. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here for you.

Max admitted to drugging my drink. I would of been raped. Again.

It was the next morning Avani had stayed in my room with me as I was to scared to be alone. I felt like shit and it didn't take long until I was at the toilet throwing up. Avani came Into me and held my hair back whilst rubbing my back. As soon as I had finished she text Anthony to tell him we were awake and I had been sick. He soon came to my room and to the bathroom as I was sitting their with my face in my hands trying not to cry. He switched places with Avani and instantly wrapped me into a tight hug which I quickly pulled away from to throw up some more. This happens on and of for the next 30 minutes.

About 30 minutes later I was getting up and brushing my teeth to remove the horrible taste left in my mouth. I was trying to hold myself together especially since Avani was in the room and she didn't know about my past experience. I didn't want her or the boys to know they would see me differently think I'm weak. Why do you think I put up a barrier for all the people I meet.

Avani left to go make breakfast and I turned around and Anthony was there with his arms open waiting for me to break at any given point, which I did. I was a sobbing mess and couldn't contain myself but all he did was play with my hair and draw shapes on my back like he used to do when we were young.

I had now stopped sobbing but I did have a few tears falling down my cheek which he wiped away.
Savannah-"Anthony I'm so stupid. I let a stranger get me a drink. I drank it. If I hadn't stared crying then It would of happened all over again"
Anthony-"savannah look at me now." To which I responded by doing so.
Anthony-"your not stupid you were drunk and young. We all make mistakes and learn from them, this is one of those times. What happened last time was NOT your fault and NEVER will be. If it had happened again it still wouldn't of been your fault"
Savannah-"I let him take control of me Anthony. I have let two boys take control of me in the past year. I'm not strong, I'm weak and useless."
Anthony-"you didn't let anyone do anything that was taken away from you and never should of been. You are one of the most strongest people I know, you have been through a lot of shit and you still come out fighting."
Savannah-"it was my fault it happened"
Anthony-"it was never your fault, they were disgusting individuals that took your rights away from you. I'm so happy the boys stopped him last night before anything else had happened but I should've been there to do that not them." Now it was my turn to comfort him from his guilt.
Savannah-"you can't always protect me Anthony as much as you would like to you can't"
Anthony-"I promised you I wouldn't let anyone hurt you again and I did"
Savannah-"no you didn't. Like you said there are some disgusting individuals out there and it's not our fault"
Before he could say anything else someone knocked on the door.
Savannah-"come in"
Kio-"hey are you okay?"
Savannah-"no but I will be" I said with a slight smile
Anthony-"hold up you actually told him how you feel?"
Savannah-"Oh my god I fucking did"
Anthony-"are we wearing down on you savannah"
Savannah-"no no your not"
Kio-"awww I liked that side to savannah"
Savannah-"well you won't get it again"
Anthony walked past kio and whispered 'that's a lie' and thought I couldn't hear him I shook my head as he walked out of the room.
Kio-"Avani told me to get you guys for breakfast"
Savannah-"oh thanks. Did you hear any of that?"
Kio-"no was I supposed to?"
Savannah-"nooo no no. I was just checking because then I would have to open up"
Kio-"I'm not going to push you to say anything but I want you to know me and the boys are always here for you and won't judge you about anything in your past."
Savannah-"thank you kio. Come on let's go eat" I said trying to hide the lump growing in my throat. These boys actually care about me. They saved me last night and I have been such a dick to them.
Savannah-"kio I'm sorry"
Kio-"what? Why are you sorry?"
Savannah-"for treating you guys like shit then getting you guys involved in something that you didn't have to be involved with. It's going to blow up and your going to be dragged through social media" I said now crying again.
Savannah-"like I said I ruin all good things"
Kio wrapped me in his arms and swayed us side to side.
Kio-"you were new to the group, scared to make new friends we don't care that you treated us like that because to be honest if I was you I would of done something similar. You didn't get us involved in anything we chose to do that, we chose to get ourself in social media and if it gets brought up who gives a fuck. We did what we believed was right and fought for someone we care about."
Savannah-"thank you kio"
Kio-"you don't need to thank me. I did nothing other than tell you the truth"
We stayed in the hug for a couple more seconds until we pulled apart and I washed my face to try and hide my tear stains. Once I had done that we headed downstairs to the rest of the group.