Summer with swayLA

Part 2 chapter 22

I have spent most of the day sitting on the floor either in my room or the bathroom. I didn't know what to do with myself and In the end Bryce saw me and I could see the worry flash over his face. He instantly came to my side asking if everything was okay and I just nodded in response.

I don't know how I'm supposed to tell him I'm hurting as much as I'm hurting. Especially cause he looks so broken over finding me in this State. I'm going to have to start being more careful on who's around and where I have my... I don't really know what I should call this.

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When Bryce had finally coaxed me into eating and getting into bed I felt a sudden wash of relief run over me. I was actually eating something more than a round of toast a day. I had Bryce by my side and I felt well... safe.

It was comforting, very comforting. I lay my head down on his chest as he traced tiny patterns over my neck before he suddenly stoped. I could feel his heart almost pick up pace as fast as a strike of lighting and he slowly lifted my head up.

Bryce-"savannah can I ask you some questions?"
Savannah-"erm- yeah?"
Bryce-"did they hurt you?" Straight to the point I see, Bryce.

I gulped down on the lump seeming as it's always growing in my throat before nodding. He pulled me closer to him covering me in tiny kisses.

Bryce-"I'm sooo sooo sooo sorry savannah! I should of been there, I should of stoped it!"
Savannah-"Bryce you didn't know... how could you. Don't blame yourself for something happening to me..." I whispered against his chest.
Bryce-"but I should of noticed"
Savannah-"why should you off. I didn't say anything was wrong I hardly text you at all for that matter"
Bryce-"that's why I should of known"
Savannah-"me telling you I needed a break from my phone means you should of known I was getting abused?"

He stayed quite as I nodded my head.
Savannah-"exactly it was my fault"
I felt him shake slightly before sitting us both up.
Bryce-"it was not your fault okay? Don't ever say what those people did to you was your fault!" He said locking eyes with me and holding me close.
Savannah-"yes Bryce I know... but if I had-"
Bryce-"no savannah... how about this. We both think it's our fault but really it's neither of ours fault right?"
Savannah-"I guess so" I murmured
Bryce-"no deep down you know it was their fault not yours please don't blame yourself"

Conversations like this went on for at least another 10 minutes until Bryce got his way and I agreed that it was neither of our faults. Which he is right it's not... it's just easier to blame yourself.

We were finally back to me laying on his chest whilst he now carefully traced a spot on my neck. He would barely touch me like I'm some porcelain doll that's about to break anytime something lands on her. He also made sure to not even go near a bruise Im guess he found on my neck.

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After a while off me tossing and turning quite a bit I finally managed to get to sleep which was a relief... until I had a nightmare.

It was a strange one I was back with the others yet this time they had somehow got all of the sway boys, damelios, the hype house and would slowly hurt them each one by one whilst I had to sit and watch them do it.

It was awful one by one I would hear them scream for help. Yell out for me and I was stuck... I couldn't move.

I was pulled out of the nightmare by Bryce gently shaking me awake...

Bryce-"baby... baby...baby" he would repeat going slightly louder with each one.
Bryce-"please wake up baby... it's just a dream wake up" he said before I opened my eyes and felt tears run down my cheeks.

Bryce-"your okay... it was just a dream" he murmured pulling me into his arms and holding me against his chest tightly.
Savannah-"they hurt you..." I whispered into his chest.

I felt him tense up slightly but tried not to show it before moving some hair from my face.
Bryce-"it's okay it was just a dream... I'm okay" He reassured me leaving tiny kisses ok my cheek and by my ear.

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After that episode I didn't really sleep... I closed my eyes after I had calmed down so Bryce could go back to sleep but I couldn't sleep at all. I felt his body relax against mine as he fell back into sleep that's when I slowly unhooked myself from his grip and walked to the end off the bed.

I looked over at him sleeping peacefully and smiled slightly before checking the time and heading out of the room. It was 4am so I knew I wasn't going to go back to sleep anyways now even if I wanted to.

I made my way down the stairs and went and walked through the kitchen to the backyard. Once I slid the door across slight I felt the cold breeze hit me and shuddered at it. It's not to cold I think it was mainly just the sudden change of climate especially from being so wrapped up with Bryce to now standing outside on my own.

I walked across the patio until I reached the pool area and I slowly dipped my toes in to feel that also be cold. I glanced around the pool area for a few minutes before laying down under the stars.

I still feel far away from the boys and they are inside right now. Most of the time it's like I'm not even there... I can see them and hear them doing the stupid things these boys do but I still don't feel like I'm home for some reason. I still feel scared...

A/n so another thank you to you all and a HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope it's the best one yet for all of you.

Im hoping to get more writing done before I go back to school cause my school opening date has been pushed back yet again.

Anyways I hope everything's good with everyone and that you are enjoying the book. I have some cute/sweet moments in between some of the sad moments to way each other out slightly so look forward to that!

Thank you again!! 🤍