Why Would You Ever Kiss Me?

Tonight Youre Perfect

Stiles POV
It escalated quickly. Next thing you know were in the back seat and I'm in my boxers and she's in her bra and underwear.
They were skimpy so when she straddled me I knew she could feel my excitement.
The windows were fogged and music played softly in the background.
I kissed down her chest and her head fell back while my fingers tugged lightly on her curls. Her head came back up and her lips pressed to my sweaty forehead as she grinder down.

I didn't know how much more I could take of just this. I wanted it all. I was selfish that way. She moaned my name and it sounded like a symphony.
It was the sweetest sounds I've ever heard. My fingers dug into her hips pressing her down more and more and they went under the thin straps of her underwear.
Without breaking our kiss I picked up my pants from the floor and felt around for the pockets.
"You come prepared?" She asked when I pulled out the condom.
"Well, you have proven to be quite unpredictable." I said and she laughed.

She moved from off of me and I held the condom in between my teeth as I got fully undressed. My sweaty and shaky fingers fumbled with the packaging and I started to get impatient since I couldn't open it.
"Gimmie." She said holding her hand out. I dropped it in her hand and she ripped it open with her teeth.
Uh, hot.
She slipped it on me and I pulled her underwear down as she knelt beside me.
"Want me to ride?" She asked.
Is that even a question?!
"Girl get your ass over here." I said taking her by the waist.

Her left leg lifted over me and her thigh touched mine and I just braced myself. My head fell back against the head rest watching her position herself.
Both my hands held her on either side of her waist as she grabbed me and hovered over just for a quick breath.
"Stop teasing." I said breathlessly as my tip just barely was in her.
She laughed and lowered down.
Fireworks.
She squeezed her eyes shut but mine were wide open and they focused on her.

She started to move up and down and I tried to ask if she was okay, but my breath was taken away.
Her nails dug into the top of my shoulders and my fingers fumbled with the clasp of her bra until it final snapped loose.
It fell down her arms and she threw it to the side and she pressed to me.
The coolness of the metal bar from her nipple piercings made me shiver, in a good way.
My fingers traced over the ink on her skin that I could decipher in the darkness but I knew was there.

As I stopped being frozen my hips moved with hers. She winced at my sudden movement and we both were breathing heavily.
"Fuck." She said.
Even her cursing sounded holy.
She rotated her hips and my eyes rolled in the back of my head.
The pressure in my lower stomach was building rapidly but I needed to make this last as long as possible.
She ran her fingers through her hair pushing it to one side and the pace picked up.
I don't know what got me quicker, the slow movements or the fast ones.

Her tongue danced with mine as she moaned in my mouth.
"Mm." I moaned back.
"D-do the circle with your hips again." I asked desperately.
She smiled against my skin and complied. Her hips circled again and it was like the wind was knocked out of me.
Although it felt amazing and I asked her to, I don't think I'd last another one.
As I was thinking of lasting longer, she sat all the way down on me and I jerked up holding onto her.
"Oh my God." I said. It was involuntary. It just came out of my mouth.

She pushed me back down against the seat. I was breathing rapidly now and I was just trying to last. I wanted her to go too but she seemed like it was good for her too.
Sweat formed on her chest and the windows were now all fogged up. It was hot as hell in here. Both in temperature and the mood.
I kissed her in between her boobs and her head fell back again running her fingers through my hair and tugging lightly.
Nothing hurt, everything, even just for a moment, felt perfect.

At this point, I couldn't fight it anymore. I was close. Really close. I involuntarily moved faster as she stayed put.
"Baby I-" I began to say.
"I know I know." She said. "Just, just go in full one more time." She asked desperately.
I mean, anything for my girl.
I mentally prepared for everything. The end, her face, her sounds, all of it.
At the same time as I thrusted forward she pressed down and we both moaned loudly. Her legs shook and her knees wobbled next to me. She continued to moved slightly as I finished completely.

It felt cold as she got up and goosebumps covered my body.
She sat down next to me and we turned our heads and just looked at each other. I grabbed her cheek softly and kissed her gently.
She sighed happily and kissed my shoulder.
"What should I do with?" I asked holding the condom.
"Uhhh would it shock you if I said 'I don't know?" She asked laughing while getting dressed.
The worst part.
It felt kind of wrong but I put it on the seat and as I got dressed too I had to ask her, "Who was that lady? At the diner? If you don't mind me asking."

She looked at me and she stopped putting her shirt on for a second and then flipped her hair from out underneath it.
"Um she is my friends sister. I haven't seen them in a long time." She said vaguely.
"Sorry for asking I just, hated to see you cry." I admitted trying to squeeze any other information out of her.
"They were happy tears." She said buttoning her jeans.
"How long has it been since you've seen them?" I asked, knowing the answer. 4 years.
"It's been 4 years." She said. "That's another reason why I don't believe time exists. It felt like yesterday and forever ago."

I knew what she meant. It didn't make sense but I understood completely.
"You just get so wrapped up in a bunch of shit and you blink and then a year goes by. And you think 'well I'll call tomorrow.' and then you don't. You think you have forever but you don't." She said.
She was trying to justify something. I didn't know what but I could see the guilt behind her reasoning.
"Next thing you know you're face to face with them and you have to think of a reason to explain why you haven't called."

"A phone call works both ways." I said. She nodded her head.
"Yeah, but I never answered." She said.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" I asked pulling my shirt over my head.
"No." She said. "But I probably should."
"Well you know I'm here when you want to." I said rubbing her shoulder.
She nodded.

Today carried a lot of emotions and it was all confusing. We were fighting, she was crying, we were laughing, she was smiling, we loved, and now she had lost.
And I was trying to understand so I could say the right things. But I was inexperienced, she had gone through things that not many people go through. So I wasn't sure what she needed and how to be there.
How do you take the weight of the world off someone shoulder?
It was 1 am and it's true what they say. The time between 12 am and 6 am have a funny way of making you feel either ontop of the world, or 6 feet below it.

"We better get you home, before your dad constructs a missing persons report." She said laughing lightly.
"I always hate this part." I said knowing that the streets would be empty and the only thing that could make this time last longer would be lights.
When we pulled up to my street I just dreaded getting out. I just wanted to take her in with me and give her one of my shirts and get under the covers and just sleep.
"I wish you could stay the night." I said as she parked the car in my driveway.
"If it wasn't a school night because I know we wouldn't sleep much." She joked.
What can I say?
"What if I promise that we'll go straight to sleep?" I tried persuading her.
"It's not you I'm worried about. But," she said looking at me sideways. "it just makes sense because you know we sleep better together." She said.
No need to justify it with me.
"Is that a yes?" I asked confirming. She opened the car door and climbed out.
"Duh." She said.

We snuck in very quietly and crept up the stairs. We held our breaths walking past my dads room and into mine.
"Here." I whispered handing her a shirt. She got undressed again and I had to try to not stare.
"Uh do uh need like sweatpants or anything?" I whispered again.
"I think this is good." She whispered back. The shirt fell to her mid thighs and hung very loose. I don't even think my sweatpants would fit her period.

We crawled into bed together and I held her from behind and she snuggled in holding my hands.
And I hold her tight to keep her together. And I kiss her head to keep her safe. And I tell her goodnight as if I won't see her in my dreams. And I tell her I love her because I mean it, with my whole being.

Now I can rest. Knowing she's next to me and feeling her steady breathing against me. Knowing she could be anywhere, but she's here with me.