Why Would You Ever Kiss Me?

Somebody That I Used To Know

Stassis POV
I had been ignoring Newt and trying to ignore Hero since Wednesday morning.
It's been killing me, but I'd be damn if I'll be the first to speak.
They owe me an apology, I'm not going to apologize for trying to protect myself in a state of sheer panic.
Behind those walls he won't let come down. I know he has more to say.

I grabbed a set of keys and I drove myself to school, alone.

I parked in the lot and hit my forehead n the steering wheel and sighed to myself. It was the presentation today and my mind was so clouded. Between my brothers, Wanheada, my dad, the Expo, and for Gods sake Lydia trying to ruin my life! I felt totally unprepared and this was a new and unfamiliar feeling.

"Get it together Annie, focus! You're being weak.. Stop being so weak and snap out of it!" I tried to give myself a pep talk and tried to get out of my own head. How the hell do you escape your own mind?

I heard a knock on my window and it was Charlie.
"Come on!" He said muffled. I took the keys out and grabbed my bag.
"Sorry." I said laughing a bit embarrassed.
"You ready for the presentation?" Charlie asked as we walked into school together.
"Uh as ready as I'll ever be I guess." I said just kind of wanting to get this over with.

We walked into English and it was empty besides Mr. Stone.
"Stassi.." He said and Charlie sat down and I walked over to his desk.
"I spoke with your parents, and um, I just want you to know, that if you need anything, advice or someone to listen, I'm here." He said.

What the hell did they say to him?

"Okay. I'm good though you know." I said feeling embarrassed.
"Okay." He said smiling.
I walked back to my seat and watched as everyone else came in.
Scott and Stiles walked in together whispering to Will.. who had a black eye.
What was going on lately.
"Hey!" I whispered. "Are you okay?"
He kept his head down and you could feel the tension.
"Yeah.." He said weakly.

Stiles and Scott also kept their head down. There was something I didn't know.

"Okay.." Stone said clapping his hands. "Group one.. You're going to start us off."
Charlie and his group presented on 'A Midnight Summers Dream' and we were next and no one seemed ready to present.

"Group Two." Stone said and I don't know who was going to get up first, but if it's going to be me that so be it.
I stood up with my computer and the three of them got up slowly together, like zombies.
Look I get we all got shit going on, but I do too, and I don't want to present this all by myself.

"I'll explain later." Stiles whispered.
"So we did 'Animal Farm' by George Orwell..." I started with the powerpoint and it looks like no one is going to help me out, so I'll just take one for the team.

I did the whole presentation and it was time for the class questions.
"How would you say this book represents today's society, even though it was respresenting World War II?" Stone asked.
I looked to the three of them and not a peep.
"Uh it's representing today's society in America because before, Hitler believed that Germany was the greatest country in the world, it lead to misinformation, racism, and ultimately genicide. And a lot of people feel that America and Americans can do no wrong because they believe that America is the greatest country in the world." I said.

Of fucking course. Jackson raises his hand.
"What evidence do you have that America is not the greatest country in the world?"

I cleared my throat and said,
"There is no evidence that America is the greatest country in the world. We're 4th in Math, 7th in literacy, 27th in science, 128 in infant mortality, 49th in life expectancy, 3rd in median household income, and 4th in exports. The United States of America leads the world in three categories 1, number of incarcerated citizens per capita, number of adults who believe angels are real, and defensive spending, where we spend more than the next 26 countries 25 of whom are allies." I said matter of factly.
"And how would you propose fixing this?" Lydia said.
Then Will spoke up, "The only way to solve a problem is to admit that there is one."
"That doesn't answer my question." She said.
"It does actually. It means ignorant people, like you two, need to realize that there are issues within this country that if are not recognized will not be fixed. So you fix it by starting with yourself." I said.
"Leave it to God." She said smiling and I knew that my point on the angels would bother her Jesus worshipping ass.
I walked over to her desk and put my hands on the front of it and leaned in.
"At the trail of God we will ask 'Why did you allow all this?' And the answer will be an echo, 'Why did you allow all this?"
I turned my back on her and she stood up and spit out, "You need Jesus!"
I was right up in her face and through gritted teeth I said,
"Do I look like someone who cares what God thinks?"
"Okay you two!" Mr. Stone said nervously and moving us away from each other.
"Group Three!"

I sat back in my seat and I was irritated as hell. Not just the fact that Lydia has to mouth off any chance she gets, but that Scott and Stiles had me do everything by myself. It's a group project with a group grade, I can't risk a bad grade on their account. I get that something happened with Will, but what the hell with these two?!

We got halfway through presentations and God I was so pissed that I didn't want to talk to anyone.

I felt really out of tune with everyone.
Between not speaking to my brothers and now Scott and Stiles keeping things from me. Everyone I thought was on my side seems to already be a pair.

I can't care so much. I have to learn to be whole by myself. That the people in my life are merely chosen to add things, not make up for it. I learned more about being a friend when I was alone.
I needed to learn that not everyone needed to know everything, not even my brothers. Somethings should just be for me to know, for me to deal with it.
I needed to be there for myself. Because sometimes you're all you have, and sometimes you're all you need.
I was tired of depending on other people for happiness because it left me empty. I was tired of this pit in my stomach when I could feel the difference in tone or attitude towards me.
If you put your own happiness in other peoples hands, they'll drop it everytime. Everytime.

Stop being so weak! I told myself.
They say a woman's first blood doesn't come from between her legs, but from
biting her tongue. I'm done letting men dictate my mood.

I walked to chem alone and I thought of ways to make myself my own hero. The hopeless romantic in me hopes that Stiles would come up from behind me and filled me in, but the part of me I was trying to create didn't care to know. It was like a war between my mind and my heart.
But if there's one thing about being a Stark, our minds are too powerful to be tricked.

I have moved the universe for those who can't even hold the Earth for me.
As bad as it can get I learn something about myself. That I could go through this, and survive.

Stiles never walked me to chem, and Scott sat in silence.