Why Would You Ever Kiss Me?

Ghost Of You

Stassis POV
I couldn't believe it. The nerve this girl had. Anxiety filled me up. The butterflies were now bees.
I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to beat this bitch up.
"He was in town! I invited him!" She said sitting down.
"Wha- No!" I said.
"Come on Stark. You're being rude." Jackson said sarcastically.

Rude? Really? Me? That's not rude they want to see rude I will love to show them rude.
"I just wanted to see you I had to talk to you-"
"No! I don't want to talk to you! Get out!" I said in disbelief. "How dare you!" I said to Lydia.
I looked to Stiles and he looked like he's seen a ghost, maybe even like he might be sick.
Scott and Allison looked equally mortified.

"How dare I?" Lydia said as if she had done nothing wrong. "Look, I just know that things ended on bad terms I wanted you to get the closure you need." She said shrugging her shoulders.
"I got closure the day I left! That's all you need to know!" I said raising my voice.
"Annie look I just-"
"Don't call me that! Dont touch me! Just, fuck off!"
"You're causing a scene my dear.." Jackson commented. Stiles still hadn't said a word.

My past is armor. And I can never seem to take it off, no matter how many times people tell me the war is over.

I have to get out of here. Newt, Kylie, someone anyone damn it! I thought.
"Stassi come on.." Lydia said as I got up from the table. "You guys can work it out! Be civil." She said sipping her water.
"You wanna know why it didn't work out you wanna know why I left, so badly?" I said in her face.
"Because it's hard to love someone again after they give you a black eye and break three of your ribs you bitch!" I said slamming the table.

"If you even think about following me I'll fucking kill you!" I said to Luke as he turned to me as I walked away.

I nearly ran out of the restaurant and down the sidewalk. I had no idea where I was or where I was going, anywhere was better than there. Dead in an alley was better than there.
"Kylie?" I asked crying into the phone.
"What are you doing? Are you around? Can you come get me please?" I sobbed.
"Yeah yeah girlfriend of course where are you?" I heard her get up and keys jangle.
"I-I-I don't know! I'll have Jarvis send it to your phone. Just hurry. Please!"
"Okay okay I'll be right there." She said and I hung up.

I crossed the street a few times trying to make sure no one would stumbled upon me. I kept my head down and just kept moving. I came across a small park and I sent Kylie the address from there.
I slid down the play house and just cried. I had my face in my hands and just wailed.
I felt so stupid. Again.
I hated how I was when he was around and I just kept seeing the events of that night whenever I blinked.
I could smell the vodka on him and I just hear glass shattering and me screaming for him to stop.
I remember hearing my ribs break and having the wind knocked out of me. I remember just laying there waiting for it to end. I was a 100 lb girl against this 180 lb guy. I never stood a chance. All I could do was wait for it to end. And it did.
And he has the nerve to ask for me back.

"Hey!" I heard a girls voice. It was Allison. She ran towards me and knelt down next to me. "Hey oh my God! Are you alright?" What a dumb question to ask.
"Is it just you?" I asked between sobs. She nodded her head yes. "I'm supposed to let the others know if I found you-"
"No!" I kind of shouted and then chewed on my nails. "No no please! Dont!" I begged crying.
"Okay okay. It's no problem. Just let's get you back to the car we'll take you home." She said with a sympathetic smile. I shook my head no and Kylies timing couldn't have been better.

I stood up and began to jog to the car as best as I could in heels.
"Stassi wait!" Allison said from behind me. Kylie got out of the drivers side and ran towards me. She hugged me and I just cried into her.
"What the hell is wrong with you people!" She yelled at Allison.
"I-we had no idea that anything like this was going to happen. It was just supposed to be a triple date.." She stammered.
"Stassi.." She said touching my shoulder. "Stiles is looking for you. What should I say?" I started to shake uncontrollably and I didn't have my pills with me. I swore I didn't need them anymore.
"Stass!" Kylie said holding me up. "Do you have your medication?" She panicked.
"N-n-n-no." I spit out.

I felt Kylie and Allison try to carry me to the car.
"Stassi just breathe okay? I know it doesn't feel like it but you're going to be okay. I swear on my life." Allison said with tears in her eyes.
"Y-you d-didnt see-e m-me." I said to her before Kylie closed the door.

Kylie got in the front seat and the engine roared. Then she sped off.

Stiles POV
I was checking every shop I was on the phone with Scott the whole time and I looked down every alley every crack that she could fit into.
"Stassi!" I called out, knowing she wouldn't answer to that, but I tried anyway.
"Stiles meet me at Wooden Park." Scott said over the phone.
"Is she there?" I asked. "Do you have a scent?"
"I might." He said hanging up and I ran as fast as I could. I j-walked through traffic and nearly got hit by a car.
I saw Scott and Allison standing there.
I looked all around and I couldn't see her.
"Have you seen her? Scott was she here!" I yelled.

He sniffed around and looked at Allison.
"You saw her?" He asked. She had tears in her eyes a shook her head no.
"Allison. Tell me you didn't see her." He said. "I didn't."
"You're lying!" He said and Allison kind of broke down.

I punched the playground castle until my knuckles bled. "God damnit!" I screamed. "Stiles I'm sorry! She asked me not to say anything!" Allison cried out.
"Where the hell is she?!" I yelled.
"I don't know! Her friend picked her up. She was having a panic attack! She needed her medication!" Allison said.

I sat down on the mulch of the park and held my head in my hands. How did everything get so screwed up?
"Hey man..." Scott said sitting next to me. "This isn't your fault."
"I begged her to come here. Of course it's my fault." I admitted.
"This was Lydia and Jackson. You begged her to come because you like her and you wanted to go out with her."
I kind of choked on my words and my voice began to break.
"I told her that I could protect her Scott. I let her down." I said wiping a stray tear off my cheek.
"We can fix this. We always do." His optimism made me sick right now. "Hey!" he said slapping me on the cheek. "I saw the way you two looked at each other. Don't pretend like this didn't mean anything to either of you."

It meant everything to me.

Scott handed me his phone. "Call her." He said turning around to go comfort Allison who was still crying.
The line was ringing and I felt like I was going to be sick.
"Hello?" A voice said. This was not the New York accent I was hoping to hear.
"Hello?" I said back.
"Who is this?" She asked.
"It's Stiles. Where's Stassi?" I asked impatiently.
"She's in the shower."
"Who is this?" I asked.
"Kylie??" She said with a duh kind of tone. "Can you give Stassi the phone please?" I asked.
"Let me check with her quick."
"Wha- just give her the phone!"
"Don't yell at me or I'll hang up!" She said.
"Okay. Okay. Any bad." I replied shaking my head.

I heard low muffled talking and running water. I heard the phone move around and finally someone spoke to me after what felt like forever.
"Hello?" She said.
"Yeah yeah I'm still here. I'm still here." I said nervously.
"Stiles?" It was her. Good God it was her.
"Stassi?" I asked. My lip quivered at the sound of her voice. I tried to pull myself together but my voice was shaky.
"Where are you?" I asked.
"I'm at a friends house.." She said quietly.
"I've been looking for you." I said sniffling.

There was a bit of silence but I could hear her cry on the other end of the line.
"I'm sorry.." She said crying.
"What the hell are you sorry for? I'm the one who's sorry." I said rubbing my hand on my thigh nervously. "I froze. I completely froze and I didn't do anything or say anything."
"I-I-I.." she stuttered. "I'm sorry I left, but I had to go. I panicked. I wasn't running from you."
I sighed in relief.
"Well, the nights still young." I said a bit hopeful. "I could come get you. I'll pick up McDonalds or ice cream. Whatever you want." And she choked out a laugh.
"Hold on.." She said. I heard rustling sounds and indistinct conversation.
"Would it just be you and me?" She asked and I could see her smile through the phone.
"You bet your ass." I said smiling, pleased with her response.
"See you in a bit then. I'll text you the address. I just need to get dressed again." She said.
"You'll come out in whatever you're in when I get there." I joked.
"Then you better hurry up." She said before hanging up.

I thanked the universe for giving me this third chance that Lydia has screwed up for me.
I got the address and told Scott and Allison too bad basically.
"Where the hell are you going?" Scott yelled to me.
"I'm about to take the girl of my dreams out! Again!" I yelled back running to the jeep.