Why Would You Ever Kiss Me?

That Would Be Enough

Stassis POV
I felt my heart in my throat when he put his arm around me. And it felt right enough to put mine around him.
It's like we fit.
We walked around campus looking for something to eat but if this was all we did all night, it would be enough for me.
We looked around and walked around and I would say that we wasted time, but time spent with him didn't feel wasted.
"So," I said. "Tell me, how the hell do you know Tony Stark?" I asked.

He tensed up a bit, I could feel it where my arm wrapped around him.
"I went to school with his kids." Was all he said.
"That's crazy." How does that even happen? I could never imagine having a family like that living near me in a regular ass neighborhood. "You like Italian?" I asked him as a small restaurant came into view at the end of the street.
He looked a bit in pleasant shock.
"I actually love Italian." He said smiling.
"Good. Me too. I don't think it will compare to Little Italy however."
"Probably not."
"You ever been? To New York?" I asked him.
"Yeah I have. I loved it." He said.
"What did you do there?" I asked as he held the door opened for me and I looked back at him as I spoke to him.
"I checked out Central Park, I went to Little Italy for lunch-"
"Which place?"
"Uh Ragazzis." He said and I filled up with joy. I knew that place!
"You meet Nonna Pia?" I asked and he swallowed hard at the mention of her name.
"Yeah. Yeah I did. She fed me good."

I laughed knowing how she was.
I miss them.
I miss the city.
"Oh I went skating in Rockefeller."
"You skate?" I asked. It was the first date. There will be a lot of questions here.
"Not really. I'm not too good." He said laughing nervously.
We ordered and waited in an area outside. It seemed like something was on his mind.
But I didn't know how to ask.
It seemed as if every phrase or question I answered, it left him more startled than before. What was I doing wrong?

Is hands rubbed on his thighs.
Sweaty palms.
He was nervous.

The sun was almost finished setting. It started to turn navy blue and dark purples as the last sliver of the sun disappeared and the crescent moon was rising.
I stared at him waiting for him to say something and my fingers interlocked together and I rested my chin on them.
"You seem nervous." I said.
"I am."
"Why?"
"Pretty girls make me nervous."
My heart stopped and I couldn't help but smile at his quick response.

"I don't like it when you're nervous." I said.
He shrugged his shoulders condescendingly and smirked.
"I don't want to say anything wrong." He said.
"You won't." I replied.
"How do you know?" He laughed lightly at the thought that he'll say something to screw this up.
"It's not in your nature." I said sipping on my water.

Our number was called for our order and we grabbed it to go so we could sit somewhere else.
"Wait. Where are we going?" He asked.
"I don't know I was following you!"
"I was following you!" He said laughing adding to mine.
We just sat down in the grass and people watched as we ate.
"So, what do you think of college so far?" I asked him.
"It's definitely not like the movies. But I'm liking it more than I anticipated."
"Didnt have high hopes?" I asked taking a bite and looking at him.
He shook his head and the tip of his head waved in the wind.
"I mean I felt bad leaving my dad all by himself and I lived in Beacon Hills my whole life I didn't really know much of what else was out there. I don't know how you deal with being so far away."

It made me sad.
Because I feel like it should have been hard but it wasn't and I almost wished it was. I just don't remember that much of it. It's fuzzy. Like I remember chunks as if it were just highlights that were written down for me. Things to be able to answer simple questions, but nothing for deep conversation.
It was frustrating.

But I just shrugged.
"I don't know I think it's just like there is so much out there and it's hard to make decisions when there's places I haven't been and people I haven't met. I barely know who I am."
"What do you mean?" He asked.
"Like I was so different just a month ago because I moved and I met new people, I met you." I said smiling.
And he gave a weak smile.
Maybe I should be quiet.
"You think you've change?" He asked after that awkward ordeal.
"For the better." I admitted.