I sit on my bed in thought, looking at your book. I got to know that Jason won't be here for months. He is going to complete his finals online. He would be here for graduation. And that's months away. That fucker. If Jason had wanted to escape then sure, he had done a good job.
I close my eyes tight. The hot tears get pushed out. I feel hot. All of a sudden I feel this regret for not seeing you one last time. I should have gone to your funeral. I should have made an effort to see you. Now, everything seems far gone. Everything seems too late. I miss you.
There is nothing left of you. I want to see you. I want to feel your presence, feel your warmth that I have been aching to be wrapped around in. Ava. I miss you.
I take the pillow and hug it tight. I bury my nose deep in the pillow. It doesn't feel like you. I've always dreamt of hugging you. I dreamt of that smell and warmth of yours wrapping around me. The pillow makes me feel empty. I let out a frustrated cry. I miss you, woman.
I throw the pillow at the wall in exasperation. I should try to forget you. There's no book left. I can't go on this wild goose chase, trying to find your killer.
I stand up in anger at myself. I can't give up on you so quickly. I need to try. I fall on all my fours on the floor, next to the pillow. I will try for you. I punch the pillow hard. I don't want to let go of you. I punch the pillow again. Please, come back. Punch. Please. I miss you. Punch. Come back, woman. For me. To feel my love. Please. I'll give you everything. Come back. Punch. I fall back flat on the ground and wipe my tears with the back of my hand. I can't stop missing you.
But what should I do? I don't know who Sebastian is. Jason won't be here for months. The only person I could ask for help, Roy, turned against me. What am I to do now? I'm a coward, Ava. I really can't. The cops have closed your case. I don't know. I fucking don't know what I should do. Please forgive me if I have failed you. I can't do this. I fucking can't because I'm a fucking coward.
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Withering You
Misterio / SuspensoA broken love story. You were my everything Ava. The gorgeous woman I had ever set my eyes on. I don't have the ability to get over you or accept the fact that you are no more. Noah finds out Ava's death is not a suicide but a murder. In search of...
