Always & Forever

Chapter 34, "Cross Necklace"

Jayda's POV

It felt nice just being in sweats and lounging around for the most part. I had one of Harry's cross necklaces on that is my personal favorite because he always kissed it before doing something when he wore it. Usually when he was with me. I acted like I didn't notice but obviously I did.

Kara and I were trying to learn these Tik Toks everyone was so obsessed with and it was pretty funny. The dancer it her was really jumping out while I on the other hand didn't really care.

I don't know what time Harry left but I assumed earlier this morning. It has now been 3 hours since Zayn left so I had no chance of knowing when he would be back. I kept looking towards the clock because I didn't want him to see me like this, even if everything isn't completely fine between us.

Louis and Eleanor took the kids wherever so it was just us two. It's 4 now so I figured that I would start dinner around 5;30 so everyone should be arriving back home around that time.

"What you thinking about?" Kara asked, breaking me out my thoughts.

"What do you want me to cook tonight? I was thinking steak, baked potatoes, and asparagus maybe?" I suggested.

"That sounds amazing, but you won't be cooking it. I'll do it."

"Kara it's fine. I've got it. It's what I always do."

"Exactly so now you can take a break. You don't need to uphold an image in front of us Jayda. You're family, you have been for a while now."

Kara gave me a hug when the front door suddenly opened. Harry.

"Sorry. Hope I wasn't interrupting anything." he smiled, but then he took in my appearance.

So much for changing before he arrived.

"Sorry. I'll be right back," I said, disappearing into the room.

Harry's POV

Kara signaled for me to go after her.

"Go in there you doof and if that girl comes back out here with a dress on, that's your head understand me?"

I took that as my que to follow Jayda into her room. She was in the closet picking out a different outfit. It hurt to see her going through so much trouble just to "impress" me. If only she knew it wasn't the clothes that made me so fond of her.

"Jayda stop." I said, stopping her hands from their motion.

"I was just looking for something to put on."

"You already have clothes on Jayda. You look beautiful." I smiled.

I'm guessing my words surprised her because she began to search my eyes to see if I was being honest.

"Really?"

"Jayda you look breathtaking as always. You look sexier than ever before. Baby I want you to know that the clothes you wear do not define how I see you. You my darling are gorgeous and other girls should wish that they could get be just a centimeter as beautiful as you are."

"Harry I-"

"Jayda you are beautiful and I'm so sorry if I ever made you feel like you have to live up to this standard that is just completely ridiculous. I love you. I love only you." I said, tilting her chin up with my index finger.

Her arms wrapped around my torso as she continued to look up at me.

"I've been waiting for you to say that for so long."

"I know and it's long overdue. Jayda, I want us back. I want you back. Come back to the room with me please?"

She looked down at her hand and I noticed her ring was still there. Hope maybe?

"You didn't take it off?"

"I told you I wouldn't. Harry I want nothing more than to be near you all the time but how do I know? There's no guarantee." she said.

"I know there's not and I know I can't keep asking you to trust me, but please I'm begging you. Just once more, give me another chance to prove myself."

Silence filled the room as she just stood there in deep thought.

"You know I have your cross on..." she smiled.

"Yeah...I noticed," I said, in confusion.

"I chose this one because it's my favorite out of all the ones you wear. You know why?"

"No..."

"Because you kiss it every time you're around me. Maybe because you wore this exact chain when we first met and you continued to wear it. It was the first thing I noticed about you when you bumped into me on the street. Then you stopped..."

My smile began to fade.

"You stopped wearing it somewhere along the way. Why?"

I'm pretty sure whatever I said would determine whether she returned to me or not. Good thing I knew exactly the reason.

"I stopped because I didn't need to wear it anymore. I got what I wanted. That cross was my good luck charm and the reason I used to kiss it was because it was my way of praying that one day you would be mine. And then you were....you are, so I don't feel the need to wear it anymore. Once we got our rings, I knew that this was forever. No matter what and I stopped." I explained.

"I wish you wouldn't have..." she sighed.

"Jayda a piece of jewelry does not dictate my love for you. I have never stopped loving you and I need you to know that."

"Okay." she said, abruptly.

"Okay?"

"Okay. I'll come back into the room but Harry this is the last time I will give you the benefit of the doubt. Please do not have me go through this again. I'm not asking for a perfect relationship, I just want you to be honest with me. Talk to me."

"You got it. I'm not perfect and I make mistakes, but I will spend everyday working to regain your trust."

She grabbed my face then dropped her hands around my neck to give me a hug. We held on to each other for what seemed like eternity. I felt safe in her arms. I felt like I was home and I couldn't screw this up. Not again.

Jayda's POV

Harry is not completely forgiven but we're married and I'm tired of these childish games. I miss my husband and as foolish as it may be for me to fall back into his grasp, I'm choosing to believe that he will do right this time. I swear to the heaven that if he ever plays with me again, I'm not sticking around to hear anymore excuses. This isn't good for neither one of us, but it's time to move on.

He helped me pack my things back up and carry them to our room. I pretended like I didn't see Kara smirking from her seat on the couch. I'm glad I'm not cooking tonight because I just wanted to chill for a little while. I invited Harry to just come lay with me for a little while before dinner.

I laid on his chest as his arms wrapped around me like a blanket. This is home. Right here right now. This is where I belong; in his arms.

"Jayda once again I'm so sorry and I want you to know how much I love you."

"I love you too Harry. Thank you for finally being honest with me. I'm sorry for being so hard on you, I just wanted you to know that I was serious."

"Trust me, note taken. I needed that though. So I appreciate you for being so hard on me."

"Always," I said, making Harry laugh.

He kissed me on my forehead and we turned back to our cuddling. However this ended quickly when Kara called everyone to dinner. I'm assuming everyone just returned home.