Always & Forever

Chapter 25, "Family"

Harry's POV

I had no idea what was about to come next.... but I'm just praying she forgives me for the 1000th time. I hate that I have a way of breaking her and I also hate that I knew she needed me.

The walk to the room was silent as ever. Our bedroom, one of the most sacred places and now here we are, maybe about to end it all....

I hope not...

Once we walked in and she took a seat on the bed I remained standing. It wasn't long before the awkward silence filled the room and on top of that, she couldn't even look at me.

"I-um.." I stammered. "Don't know where to start."

"Me neither," she whispered softly.

"How have you been?"

"How have I been?" she scoffed.

"I just...."

"Harry we can skip the small talk and just get straight to it.."

"It isn't small talk, I really want to know."

"Well things don't move on your time and you won't always get what you want so no I'm not going to tell you how I've been because you know I've been shit," she snapped.

"I'm trying here," I sighed.

"Now, you're trying now," she laughed. "Why didn't you try when I needed you to?"

"I'm sorry..."

It's like everything I say is wrong. I'm not trying to make her angry here, I'm just trying to have a conversation but deep down I don't even deserve that..

"The kids have missed you..." I smiled.

Jayda's POV

Why are you smiling? Why are you smiling? Please stop. That god damn smile Harold....!

"I've missed them too," I nodded.

"Yeah..."

"And what about you?" I asked surprising him and myself.

"I...urm.....I missed you way more than I want to admit. I'm 27 years old and there's still a lot of things I can't do by myself," he chuckled lightly.

"Figures," I mumbled, but he let me have my smart comment.

Harry's POV

"So we're just going to procrastinate?" I asked in the kindest tone.

"No, this has to happen so... let's talk.. seriously," she exhaled.

"Jayda I just want you to know that what I did is one of my biggest regrets."

"Is it? Because seemed to me you didn't care at all."

"I did care and that's why I took it the way I did. It wasn't the right way and I'm so sorry baby..."

"It's Jayda..."

"Right, sorry," I apologized again.

"Harry... you want to know what the worst part of this was?"

"No," I answered truthfully causing her to almost laugh.

I wasn't trying to joke around but everything I did was bad and if she says something I don't know then I'm going to feel even worse. I know I fucked up...

"The worst part of it all was feeling unwanted by you.  You've always treated me like I was everything..... and I wasn't trying to hide the pregnancy from you.... I was respecting Zayn and Kara's feelings too. But you do know it wasn't my fault it happened right.... because it was yours," she stated.