Always & Forever

Chapter 29, "Mistakes"

Harry's POV

Yeah I was absolutely wasted tonight. I didn't run into Jayda at all tonight, which might have been both a good and a bad thing. If she ever finds out about what I said to Kara, she's going to kill me. Literally. Kind of scared for my life right now, but I can't act suspicious.

"Harold? Babe are you okay?" Jayda asked, breaking me out of my thoughts.

"Oh sorry yeah. I was just thinking..."

"So how was the game for you? Anything exciting happen?" my eyes darted towards Kara as hers met mine as well.

Jayda just looked at me, but her smile began to fade. Technically I didn't do anything, but she wouldn't take it that way.

Jayda's POV

I saw Harry's eyes flinch towards Kara's. Did they...? No. Of course not.

"Nope. Nothing exciting. I pretty much ran into the same people all night," he sighed.

"Hmmm..."

"How about you?"

I wanted to tell him about Louis but not here. I didn't want to cause any rifts between them, but I also don't want to lie to my husband. At least I moved back and I didn't initiate anything. I never do. Bruh, why people always kissing me?

"Nope. Not at all. Same for me." I lied.

I'm going to tell him; just once we're in the room alone. I gazed across the couch to see Louis snuggled up with Eleanor. It was just because he was drunk right?

Zayn's POV

Is it just me or did Harry's eyes flash towards Kara's when Jayda asked if anything interesting happened? You know what, I'm not even going to make a big deal about it. I saw Kara tonight and she wouldn't lie if anything happened between them.

Kara's POV

Yeah I just had no intention at all of telling Zayn about what Harry and I talked about. There was no use. We didn't really do anything and it would only make him angry. However that Liam situation, I was telling him. The whole situation just infuriated me because I never asked him to kiss me. Fucking idiot.

Louis's POV

I'm a damn idiot. Why would I do that? A part of me really hoped that Jayda didn't say anything, but I know she's not that type of person to knowingly lie. Was what I said true? I love Eleanor and I don't want her to be hurt because of a stupid decision I made. Fuck me.

Niall's POV

Everyone was acting real suspicious. I'm knowing there's about to be some shit in this house. Everybody just looked guilty as hell. Well other than me of course, I didn't do anything as usual. However, Amelia and I were going to have to dip out soon because I have a certain erection that needs to be dealt with.

Liam's POV

I could tell Kara was infuriated with me. She'll probably never speak to me again. Oh god Maya's going to kill me if she ever finds out, which hopefully she won't. I'm praying with everything in me that Kara doesn't say anything.

Eleanor's POV

I'm so freaking tired and just overall drunk as hell. Why on earth is Louis acting so damn clingy? You know what, I'm too out of it to care right now. I just need him to take me to bed.

Harry's POV

"Anybody know what time it is?" I asked drunkenly.

"Uhhh....it is 12." Kara answered.

"Thanks." I smiled.

"No problem."

Jayda's POV

Okay because no. Why is he cheesing so hard? Yeah there's definitely more to the story of these two, and I was going to find out.

Nobody wanted to end the night off just yet so they started blasting music, dancing, and making more drinks for one another. I needed to talk to Harry. I pulled him into the room and sat him down on the bed.

"What is this?" he smirked.

"Not what you think it is so stop smiling. I need to tell you something."

"Okay...."

"Louis kissed me," I blurted out, "I stepped back but I wouldn't feel good if I wasn't honest with you. It's not his fault though he was drunk and didn't think about what he was doing."

"He did what now?" he asked firmly.

Oh shit.

Harry's POV

I was trying my best to contain my anger but it was really hard. I barely comprehended anything past her saying that Louis kissed her. Louis? Why is this not surprising?

"Harry?" she sighed.

"What?"

"Don't do that please. I'm trying to be honest with you so you don't find out from someone else. Baby? I understand if you're mad at me, but don't let it ruin you and Louis's friendship." she pleaded.

I looked up at her to see that tears were beginning to fall down. Damn. This must've really been weighing on her.

"Come here," I said, reaching out my hand.

She cautiously took my hand and sat on my lap. I rested her head on my shoulder.

"Okay."

"Okay? You're taking this too well. What the catch?" she sniffed.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm absolutely fucking pissed but I will give him the benefit of the doubt. I've figured Louis has always had a thing for you. At this point, who hasn't?"

"But you know it's only you I want right?" she asked, looking into my eyes.

"Yes baby I know."

"Do you only want me?"

"Why would you ask me that? You know I do."

"Harry...I see how you are with Kara. What's the real story there? I feel so insignificant and little when y'all are together in the room. I don't know why she makes me so insecure, but I don't feel like you only want me when she's around. She's known you longer than me and I just feel like she'll always have a piece
of you that I won't ever be able to access," she expressed, her tears beginning to return.

Welp, I guess have to come clean now. Ruining my marriage for what seems like the 100th time.

"Kara and I...." I started, but was interrupted by Zayn barging in.

"Thank god y'all are dressed. What is going on?" he asked, seeing Jayda's tears.

"Nothing, we were just about to come back in there," I said, motioning for Jayda to stand up.

Yes I know that might have not been the best decision, but I don't know what to say to Jayda right now.

"You sure mate? Maybe you should stay in here for a while." he said concerned.

"No it's fine." I said, walking past him.

Jayda's POV

I know he did not. Before I knew it, he walked out the room and went to join everyone else.

"You okay?" Zayn asked.

"Yeah. You can go."

"You sure?"

"Yeah I'm fine. I'm going to call it a night." I said, going into the bathroom to continue and cry my eyes out.

I just fucking explained to this stupid boy how I felt and he just left. My marriage is doomed. Maybe I'm just not enough for him. Whatever, I'm going to sleep.