What I Wish You Knew | ꪜ

Chapter Thirty Nine

To Jenna,

39. I wish you knew I would never truly judge you.

Hayley's POV

"I can tell that you're in a good mood, Hayley. So I won't try bursting your bubbly mood just yet. But last time we were here you made a promise to me that you'll finally talk about what happened and help me help you overcome it. If you won't keep your promise I'm sorry but I'm gonna have to stop being your psychiatrist."

I nodded my head frantically, tearing my gaze away from her and towards the ceiling. It had become a force of habit whenever I was in this room. The ceiling was painted to resemble the sky, something Doctor Maxine did in order for her patients to feel a sense of comfort and peace whenever we had sessions.

Just lay back on the sofa and stare up at the makeshift sky. It helped in moments of complete anxiousness, worked a bit too well actually. "I know Mrs. M, I will keep my promise but like you said don't burst my bubble just yet. I just wanna indulge in this blissful happiness for now."

From my peripheral view, I could see her lips tugged upwards into a smile. She set her clipboard onto her side, indicating that this wasn't a moment between doctor and patient but a friend to friend. "What made you this happy, Hayley?" She asked.

Throwing my hands under my head to prop it upwards, I smiled as the memory of this weekend flashed through my mind. Parker and I going to the junkyard and releasing pent-up anger that I've been holding in for much too long. Him opening up about his struggles at home. . .kissing in the rain.

Spending quality time with Landon and Drayton like old times. Taking care of Parker whilst he was sick and then spending time with his brother, Drayton and himself–something I never once thought about. And lastly, though it was small it still left a huge impact on me:

Finding out Drayton was the one who named me. So-Yeon, graceful. I turned towards Doctor Maxine, and by the stunned expression on her face, I'd say this is the first time she has seen me genuinely happy. Happiness that didn't entirely stem from a crush on a boy or getting my favourite snack.

"Everything," I sighed as my lips broke out into a smile, "everything made me happy Mrs. M."

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"So wait, you're telling me you slept on his bed!? With him like on it besides you? Oh my god, my baby is starting to grow up!" Jenna's arms enclosed around my neck and with the palm of her hand, she dragged my head on her shoulder, hugging me extremely tightly in a rather awkward position.

I shoved her away, "it's not that big a deal, he was sick, I took care of him and then I ended up falling asleep, it's not like we did anything else." She propelled across the hallway towards me from where she stood and wrapped her arms around me once again.

"It's still a step forward. You're so innocent, the Virgin Mary has nothing on you but now you finally took a step farther than a kiss, you slept in the territory of the devils' tango," she whispered into my ear, purring softly soon after as her fingers dug into my waist gently, tickling me.

I squirmed under her grip and fought the urge to laugh as we tumbled towards my locker. From a distance, I could see Parker's tall frame approaching. I slapped Jenna's hand away, "Parker's coming, and I swear if you say anything about what I just told you, I'll murder you."