Dear Hillary

Tired

February 11, 2015

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(Dear Hillary,)

So today I was really tired. Tired from lack of sleep, and tired of being afraid of losing my friends. As far as I know, my close friends all have some sort of depression or depression related problems. I know they can't help it, and neither can I, but I don't want to lose any of them. I want to keep them forever and love them and have fun with them. I don't want to lose them to death and sorrow. I really don't. It makes me so upset when I think about my friends hurting themselves and thinking about taking their own life. 

and lately I've been trying not to do those things myself. i don't harm myself any more, not that i ever really did, and i try to stay as positive as i can so that other people can lean on me. i know when i'm upset i feel like i have no one to talk to. but i like to listen and try to help, so i try to be that person for my friends. 

and that includes any of you. my inboxes (all 5 of them) are open. i may not answer right away, but i will make the effort that i would want others to make. even if i don't feel good myself.

Sorry xD I'm reading a Greek tragedy and the Hunger Games again so i'm quite dramatic. 

speaking of being tired, i have a project due on Friday and i've barely started. lol still not gonna do it tonight tho.

i love you all! talk to me if you need to because i want to help. i once sat with my friend all gym class and lost a grade because he had broken up with his girlfriend. he had yelled at me the past day and made me cry and i had just met him, but i wanted to be that person for him when no one else would or he thought no one else cared. 

have a great morning, afternoon or evening.

Mel xxxxxxxx

p.s. wait until you're older to get in a relationship