Sundays

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by okaybae

by okaybae

March 1, 2015

Dear Hillary,

Fair warning, the italicized parts are very religious, but i'd still like you to read it and see if anything touches you.

Is it really already March?

Hey, did you notice I changed the book cover and title? xD I kinda made it match yours with the flowers and all, only now your cover says in return to My Day and aklsnfsldkgnsdlg oops

On sundays I go to church, and today was really good. When I first got there, I felt so unsatisfied and gross feeling. I felt like i was about to teeter off a cliff. But when I left, I felt so much better.

I don't often talk about it, but this is my journal and I will read it again someday, so here comes the religious parts of my life.

One of my teachers said today, 'we're climbing a really steep hill, and satan knows exactly where to attack us. but god is stronger than him if we have faith." or something to that effect. I imagined it as more of a cliff, and satan removes all hand-holds or purchase on the rocks until we're holding on by our fingernails. Then God throws us the rope. We have to do our part and know how to tie the knot to lift ourselves off the cliff. If we dont, pray.

Another thing that touched me today, among the many many i experienced today, was the 'pride cycle.' First, you're in a neutral state, then there's pride, and then there's a major fall, and then there's coming unto God and repenting. It repeats.

But within it, I realized that I can't do anything without God. If you think about it, this whole life is simple. We're here to learn and be tested and find ourselves and prove our worthiness. All the petty things here don't matter when we can live for eternity.

I have a testimony that there is a God and that Jesus Christ died for my sins so that I could live in heaven again. I try my best -- or I try my best to try my best -- to be my very best everyday.

Phew. Sorry xD I just really felt I needed to say that.

So yeah, then I came home and watched some volleyball, wrote some fanfiction for my tumblr lol and did stuff on wattpad :)

I hope you had an alright day, and I hope you're feeling better, babe.

I love you all, and goodnight!

Mel xx

p.s. I hope Anne gets this xD she knows what's in the combo