2015

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by okaybae

by okaybae

December 31, 2015

Dear Hillary,

I can't believe how fast this year has gone by. I honestly can't.

This year has been by far the best and worst year of my life. I can't choose one or the other because the good moments are amazing and all, but the amount of crap I went through this year can't be ignored. I think you would say the same for yourself.

And I'll recap some of the best and worst moments I guess lol

best;

-deciding that i liked my current crush was cool

-seeing the success of my stories

-'facetiming' you i've legit thought about that a lot recently

-wait is that it

worst;

-having my physical ha

-school

-basically everything

I mean those are lame but I can't finish off 2015 strong in any way. I'm broken and can't find all of my pieces but I'm getting there, I think.

If there's one thing I've learned from 2015 it's that if you want to succeed you have to work hard. There's no scraping by, there's no I guess I tried. You either do it or you don't. You either fail or you pass the test. And I suck at working hard.

I've also learned that One Direction is still the bae. I've learned that I'm really not as smart as I used to be. I've learned that my opinion really doesn't matter 99% of the time but that's okay. I've learned that true friendship is hard to come by. I've learned that writing isn't as hard as I want it to be, I'm just lazy. I've learned that being into things like anime and video games don't get you many friends. I've learned that I really need to do less of a lot of things.

I've learned that the world glorifies things that shouldn't be. I've learned that I can't give up but that's it's really easy to hang off the edge.

I've learned a lot of things, I guess.

Thank you for being a huge part of my life, this year, Hillary. I hope this next year includes you, and the years after, too. I hope I can continue to draw strength from seeing you be a beast at everything. You've literally conquered the world this year, in my eyes. Look at all you've done and gotten through? I'm so proud of you, babe. I love you. Keeping being amazing.

And God is always a constant, as well. That really helps. I think I realized only recently that without God I would be dead in a grave. I know that without a doubt. So I'm so thankful that I have that part of my life with me and have had it since I was born.

I want to make 2016 wonderful, but it will be harder than ever. And 2017 will be harder than this year, and so on and so forth. It won't get easier, and I don't know if I'm ready. But I'll try.

I love you all.

Mel x