Dear Hillary

Positives

February 18th, 2015

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Dear Hillary, 

I just don't know. Do you see how quickly my mental state deteriorates? hah

Everyone is crumbling around me, and I'm trying to have a diet and trying to write and be successful and have a social life, but i'm just not up for it. 

so i'll quickly list off everything wrong right now or that happened today, and then onto the good things. RAPID FIRE IN TYLER OAKLEY FASHION

-my headaches have not gone away and they're getting worse

-i don't feel like writing imagines at all and it makes me want to cry

-i watched a traumatizing show that has stuck in my head all day and makes me want to puke because i am a pansy

-my diet is not working and because of me trying my stomach is aching

-i stayed up until one and then wrote imagines until four last night and i'm exhausted

-i had my friend over and after she left i got really upset for no reason

okay. now the better things

-i actually wrote imagines and tried to write one that actually meant something instead of just kiss and go yanno

-i posted again and i'm getting back on wattpad

-i saw Alix at the store and i wanted to cry because every time i see her i'm reminded of the million wonderful things she's written for me and said to make me feel better

-i got to play my video game that is extremely repetitive but i love it so much

-i got to take a shower and sing abit, away from the stress of select choir 

-i have four more days off of school 

I feel so much better now, wow. Thanks for listening Hillary, and make sure to list out the positives, even if the negatives outweigh them.

To another day, another positive. 

Mel