Well Then

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by okaybae

by okaybae

November 18 and 19th, 2014

combining these two because i'm lazy

SO EXCITED FOR NIGHT CHANGES HUAH

uh other than that my life has sucked

i've been really upset with choir and math the past two days and everyone hates me for it because i'm being a major jerk

one of my friends pinched me when i said i would stand under the chandelier if it fell. gah

i don't wanna feel this way, but why shouldn't I? i suck at everything right now

i don't know. my friends are all really mad at me and i only make it worse when i say something

and we have to do a book report, and i would much rather write a report (for obvious reasons) and tell what lessons the book taught me instead of presenting some stupid, ineffective and unimportant project that i'll put my effort into to throw away

did that not just describe all of school or

anyway, i'm super super scared about my imagines on my other account, MelHoran16. I've worked for almost a year on that book, and it has TWO MILLION reads. i only have 7 parts left! it's so stupid that there's a part limit because now no one will read that book. i know it's selfish that it's all about the reads, but it kind of is.

like hardly anyone really comments on my imagines anymore unless it's 'when is my imagine' or 'part two', and it scares me a lot. i'm so scared that no one will read my other imagines book, and that's what i want. i want people to read my stuff and like it so they have something that's constant and kind of good in their life!

. . .

it's been a few hours, and i took a shower, cried for a while because i felt like i was stumbling through these past couple of days, and I really didn't know what to do

but then me, being the religious person I am, prayed for guidance and peace in my soul for a while and what to do, and i got a clear answer;

be happy.

no one likes a sad person, and that's what i was being. i didn't like it, and neither did everyone else. it's so much easier for me to be happy, so that's what I'm gonna do

ah i feel so good now

TO ANOTHER DAY OF HAPPINESS YASSSS

Mel xxxx