Dear Hillary

Hot!

May 5, 2015

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Dear Hillary,

Yet again, not gonna catch up xD

But I am gonna copy and paste my message to my friend explaining my crush, it's a little bit of what you've already read, but it's not much reading. :)

Before that, I'll finish today. I'm at school rn, listening to Frank Sinatra (recently became obsessed with music of his and of his era), and when I get home imma just go to bed xD

Oh and it's been HOT. yesterday was 87! I've begun to prefer cold weather xD

Anyway, here it is! Sorry for my bad grammar since it was in a text xD

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So for a while now I've liked him
But I think I really started to the other day when he started like actually talking to me in the back of the car on the way home from seminary

Like he told me about his dream and then he was explaining to me how his stomach was always empty and he feels like an abyss and I'm like same

But then I think it was Thursday that we were sitting in the car and he was like
Melissa. Why are you so quiet

And im like
Uh

He's like
You never talk. It bothers me that you don't say anything

And I was like
I just don't have much to say

And he's like
Well were you a loud kid?

I was like
No

He's like
What? How?

And then his sister, 'Helen,' was like
Yeah last night he was saying how it bothered him

And I was too happy, really

Only because he finally took the time to notice something about me and talk about me to people when I wasn't there

And then today while I was with his sister for a girls camp thing we were both quiet and she was like
Yeah so Jacob was bothered by how you're so quiet

And I just kinda laughed, waiting for her to go on

And she's like
Yeah. He was like 'I don't know what she's thinking about me. It could be something bad.'

And I was quietly screaming

Then her mom picked me up and was gonna take me home and I'm like
Well I can help you guys clean the church

Cuz they had to and I thought that Jacob would be there and HE WAS

So I got there and he saw me and he kinda stopped and was like

Why are you here

And I kinda shrugged bc I want to continue being quiet around him for some odd reason

And then he was saying how there were like 20 people there and I'm like
Is that a bad thing?

And he's like
No no no

And that was fun

And then he was trying to wrap the vacuum cord up but he didn't know how so while he was play fighting with Helen's other friend I wrapped it up

And he gets done and he looks at it and he's like

How did you do that and he looked like amazed

And I was like
I just wrapped it around the handle

And he like ducked his head and smiled and was like
thanks

Msbdjdnekdjdkenfkfv

And then I was shooting hoops to impress him bc he loves basketball

But he ignored me bc of the sisters friend

Who I thought he liked but I mentioned something to her and she's like
No no he's like a brother. Besides I thought he loved Katy so and so

And I'd heard about her and how he was in trouble for texting her and being 'in a relationship'

So I figure if he liked me it would be the same way and like when the sisters friend is there (she comes to seminary a lot) he completely ignores me in the car

And when they dropped me off at home he was waving bye and like

I don't know anymore

I don't know how I'm supposed to approach him (in the sense of helping him like me) but now I can't stop thinking about it and I'll probably just screw it up but now I want to go to church and seminary and all the church activities

Maybe this is just God's way of getting me to go to more church events but like ?

And Helen kept bringing up Jacob so ?

. . .

I'm insane xD

Anyway, thanks for listening to my nonsense! Some other developments I've noticed are that he always makes it a point to say my name slfnskndkdjdc

Like the other day he was like
Melissa, do you think that smell is cow poop? (He actually wanted to know if I thought that xD)

And just this morning he was arguing about something with me and was like
You're wrong Melissa

And blehhdksneksbdksndkfnc

Anyway :)

Bye!

Mel xx