Wolfstar Oneshots (With a Hint of Jily) #Wattys2019

Safe

A/N: Songfic based on "Safe" by Daya, Remus and Sirius are already dating each other.

Only based on the bridge:

I know that I'm a fighter
Yeah, I've always been a fighter
But I tried to play with fire, and I got burned
Don't know how to help this
Yeah, I'm feeling kind of helpless
Yeah, maybe it's too selfish if I don't wanna hurt

3rd Person POV: 

"Good night guys!", Sirius calls out into the darkness of the dormitory. A chorus of "good night" erupts from the other three boys in return. The rustling of bed sheets and blankets can be heard as the four boys settle in for the night and sleep floats over them.

Their 5th year had just started. Over the summer, Sirius had gathered the courage to flee from Grimmauld place along with his brother Regulus; away from their parents, their values, and their torture.

The Black brothers ended up on the doorstep of the Potters, who were very generous and took the boys in without any questions. They gave them all the love and care that was lacking from their previous home. Sirius and Regulus couldn't understand why they did that but neither minded it at all.

It's past midnight now and Sirius couldn't seem to get any sleep. He kept rolling around on his bed, trying to get even a minute of shut-eye, but it was in vain. 

Sighing, he looked around at the other three boys sleeping soundly and quietly got out of bed. He softly padded his way to the balcony door, opening it as silently as possible and stepping out, closing the door behind him.

Sirius takes a deep breath of the cold night air, trying to calm himself down. He places his elbows on the railing, leans on it, drops his head down, and lets the tears fall.

On the other side of the glass balcony door, Remus is wide awake. 

He always had trouble sleeping on the first day of the year, filled with nerves and excitement. Peter and James are sound asleep. Remus thought Sirius was too but he had gotten up out of bed 10 minutes ago and was currently on the balcony. 

After debating with himself about whether or not he should get out of bed too, Remus pushed himself to his feet. He walked on his tip toes so as to not wake up the other marauders and pushed open the balcony door. He stepped outside and quietly closed the door behind him.

"Hey", Remus says, walking towards Sirius and standing beside him, also leaning on the railing with his elbows. He doesn't look at his boyfriend's face, assuming that he might not want that. 

Sirius pauses for a beat and says, "Hey".

"Why are you out here?"

"Just needed...space, I guess."

"Wanna talk?"

"I- not right now, Rem."

"Okay."

They stay in comfortable silence, Sirius shuffles closer to Remus to lay his head on his boyfriend's shoulder. 

They continue standing in silence as Remus wraps one arm around Sirius' waist, pulling him closer to himself. He feels Sirius let out a soft sigh as he voluntarily shrinks more into Remus.

"I- you know I'm a fighter, right?", Sirius asks after around 20 minutes.

"Yeah I do Siri, you always have been."

"That's probably why I always put up a fight in front my parents, never let them know that they won, that I was on the brink of giving up every time they hurt me. And now that hurt me too much. I tried to play with fire, got burnt, and then blamed someone else."

"Padfoot, you didn't want to play with fire. You didn't provoke them, they tortured you without reason. You have a right to blame them for your woes because they were the ones that caused them."

Sirius sniffled and Remus turned him around so that they were facing each other. Remus wiped away a stray tear on Sirius' cheek with his thumb. 

"I- I don't know how to help myself, or Regulus, or anyone and I feel so useless," Sirius stuttered as tears fell from his eyes.

"You are not useless at all love. If it means anything, you are the one I want and need the most. You are 16, you don't have all the knowledge in the world.  I know Regulus adores you and is greateful that you took him away from your parents. The best thing to do to help yourself is to talk it out with someone. Doesn't have to be now, or tomorrow, or next wekk, or even next month. But when you feel like you are ready, just know I'm here."

Sirius sniffles again and Remus wipes away all the tears. 

"Thank you Rem"

"Both of you have been through a lot together and just been present in each other's lives will help."

After a few minutes of silence, Sirius talks again.

"Is it bad that I don't wanna fight anymore? Is it selfish of me to impose on the Potters? They have saved me and Regulus but I feel like we are just causing them trouble," Sirius voices this concern.

"You are not selfish for escaping from a toxic and deadly household, one that has caused you and Reg tremendous amounts of pain. It's not bad at all that you don't want to fight considering you have been doing it all your life, love. You are not imposing on the Potters, they adore you and care for you and you could never be causing them problems," Remus replies, his hands on the shorter boy's shoulder. 

Sirius look up at his boyfriend and asks, "So you think I'll be alright?"

Remus has a small smile on his face, one hand cupping Sirius' cheek and the other combing through his hair. 

"Maybe not immediately, but over time you will be alright. I won't tell you it's all butterflies and roses, but I'll keep you safe. I will always keep you safe."

A tiny smile grows on Sirius' face and he wipes his teary eyes. He looks back up at Remus, stands on his tip-toes, and kisses his boyfriend softly. It's a pleasant kiss, filled with love, care, and hope.

Sirius then hugs Remus as tight as possible, like letting him go would kill him. "Thank you for everything, I love you Moony."

Remus smiles into the shorter boy's hair and he arms his arms around him. He kisses Sirius on the forehead.

"I love you too Padfoot, until the very end"

A/N: Hello! Wow, I am back again with an update after posting one yesterday. This has literally only happened once before 😂.

I have around 6-7 more drafts to finish, don't know when I will be done though.

Hope you enjoyed this!

Bye, Potterheads and Wolfstar Lovers,
Until Next Time,

--SP