Unpredictable: Hazel's Gaze

Oh Mother.

March 29th, 2013

My alarm went off once again. I groaned and headed towards the shower. As I was thinking, I was thinking about everyone and if everyone was ok. I always worry about everyone in the group. I worry about Jordan, Mikey, Ashton, Luke, and Calum. I was thinking about skipping school but I decided not to.

I then started to get ready and started to blow dry my hair. When I was finished, I put my hair up into a bun, And wrapped a flower headband and as I seen it was perfectly done, and as I was going to start on my makeup, I was hearing crying. I walked to my mothers room and I heard her crying her eyes out, I walked in and she had her face in her pillow, She looked up at me and her makeup was all smeared and her hair was messy, she had a black eye and I shook my head and walked up towards her. I then wrapped my arms around her back and she started to cry into my shoulder like she was my child, I hugged her tight, and kissed her cheek.

"Get some rest mother, I will bring you some tea before I go to school,"

My mother nodded her head and I went back into the bathroom and started to do my makeup perfectly. As I was done, I went to the tea pot, and heated up the water, I took my mother's favorite coffee mug, and placed it on the counter near the stove. As I was waiting for the water from the tea pot to warm up, I started to put on this cute black dress with my rose plugs. I go back into the kitchen, and pour the hot water into the coffee mug, and grab the honey to make it sweeter, then went to my mother who was watching TV, I handed her the tea and she smiles at me,

"Thank you, Hazel, You're a wonderful daughter."

I leave her room like I didn't hear what she said, I honestly cannot stand my mother with a burning passion. She over doses on drugs, has a junkie boyfriend who abuses her, she's always out late, and she pays no mind to how to house looks or not. I always have to take care of this house to make sure it is clean. Unlike her, she'll be a hoarder when I move out, and she will die in this house if she doesn't get her act together.

I get my bookbag that's near the door, and I look at myself in the full length mirror, smile at myself, and I head out the door.

Jordan seemed a bit sad today, so I left her alone by letting her do her work. My next class was Social Studies. As I was doing my work, I got a call to tell me to go to the office. I collected my things, and shoved them all into my bookbag and walked to the office.

As I entered the office, they handed me the phone, then next thing I know, the phone dropped out of my hands, I was in shock. My mom was going to the hospital, she overdosed. I ran outside the school's entrance and I started up my car. I drove to the hospital as fast as I could, I know I don't love my mother as every daughter should, but she is the only mother that I have.

As I made it to the hospital, I ran inside, and I started to push people out of my way, excusing myself to get past everyone, I walk up to the front of the desk, and I tell her my mother's name, "Layla Longsworth," "She's in room 308,"

I start to go to the elevator, and I look at my text messages, I noticed everyone is texting me, wondering where I was.

Calum's text: I seen you today, where did you go:(?

Jordan's text: How come you were not at lunch?

Ashton's text: Hey, is everything alright?

Luke's text: Are you alright? We're all worried about you.

Mikey's text: Hazel, please text back, we're worried sick.

I start to tear up because my closest friends really love and care about me. They know I would do anything for them, and they would do anything for me as well.

As I was day dreaming, I heard the elevator doors open, and I click the button to go on the 3rd floor. As I got inside, I texted everyone the same message.

"I'm fine, I just had to leave, I'll tell you guys everything, or hopefully. Love you guys! ♥" I then look up, and I see the doors open, and I walk to the right, to go to the 300 - 330 section. I then, find 308, and I see my mother laying there, she's asleep of course, because they had to get every single drug that she took out of her system. I sat in the chair near my mother's bed and I start to feel my eyes water and I lean forward, with my head down, and my hands holding my head. I couldn't believe that my own, one and only mother was going to die today. As I was sitting there, I hear a creek, and I look up and I see her boyfriend, Rome.

I roll my eyes and I sit back, "you know this is your fault right?" He started to smirk, "If it wasn't for me, your mom would have been dead. I called the ambulance, and I made sure she was ok." I then stood up, clenching my fists together and started looking at him in his eyes, "If it wasn't for you, she would have never over dosed on whatever she did over dose on! Do not tell me I should thank you for saving my mothers life?! No, I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR THIS. YOU GAVE HER A BLACK EYE, AND SHE WAS CRYING HERSELF TO SLEEP THIS MORNING. THIS IS YOUR FAULT AND YOUR DOING. I WANT YOU OUT OF HER LIFE! DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?! I WILL NOT ALLOW HER TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU!" I felt my face getting red, I was not going to stop if he had anything else to say. But he didn't, he just walked out of the room like nothing ever happened. I sat back down and I looked at my mother, I held her hand.

"Oh mother, I know you cannot hear me right now, but I'm sorry for everything." I start to put my feet onto the chair, and I start to rest my head onto the back of the seat. Then, as I was getting comfortable, a nurse walks in, "Ma'dam, is everything alright, I heard yelling." I nodded my head and smiled at her, then I started to close my eyes, and before I knew it, I was asleep.