Save me (A Niall Horan Fanfic)

Chapter 35

Hi guys im so happy, im so close to 3k which means the world to me and ily all so much❤️

Nialls POV

I know what she's thinking, I know Kara too well, she's sort of wishing she did die, so she wouldn't have to go through the pain and suffering all the time and I get that but It makes me sad.

kata is one of the best things that has ever happened to me and even the fans respect that, they won't mob us like they used to and im thankful for that, there amazing for respecting mine, the lads and Karas privacy.

"Kara, I know what your thinking" I whisper, my voice braking as I cry, she looks up at me confused "you wanted to die, didn't you?" I ask, all the lads turn and look at us awaiting an answer from her.

Karas POV

"You wanted to die didn't you?" Niall asks, I didn't want to answer this, of course I did want to die but how would I tell him? Im already a mess as it is and ive ruined there lives so I suppose it would have been best if I did let it all end.

Since I don't want to admit the truth I just keep my head down

"Kara" now harry is trying to get me to talk but i still don't, I can't.

Everyone sits in silence for the rest of the drive until we eventually get home and all sit in the living room.

"Yes" I whisper mostly to myself but as I was sitting on Nialls knee now, he heard me.

"What was that" he asks, baring in mind that this is half an hour later from when we got home so he would obviously be confused.

"I said yes, the question you asked me in the car. the answers yes, I did want to die but in a way I didn't, I didn't want to miss seeing you lot, I wanted to see you again and be with you all so I wanted to pull through, which of course I did because of you but also in a way I wanted it all to end, all this pain, anger, hurt, hatred and suffering i carry with me I wanted it gone..." i stare into space as I say it, I don't even blink.

"W-what?" Liam suddenly buts in "no, don't say anything, no one say anything, I don't want sympathy, I don't want you all to tell me that everything's going to be okay so don't! I love you all so much but I don't want you all to feel like you need to take care of me, you are fucking famous for gods sake you should all be focusing on your career, im going to go to bed and you lot are going to go on Twitter and talk/answer fans okay?" I tell them and they all smile at me and nod, i kiss them all on the cheek until I get to niall and smash my lips to his, ive missed his soft lips, how they fit with mine so perfectly.

"Get a room" louis shouts and throws a pillow at us causing Everyone to laugh, i throw him the finger and stick my tongue out at him and he apologises and holds up a hand heart.

I finally leave the room and go to bed soon letting the darkness take over.