Hospitalised//5sos©

Michael

I was sitting in my room well actually I wasn't really sitting more like hovering over my chair. My sister was coming to visit me and that scared me.

I cleaned my room over and over and started counting everything because I just couldn't help it. When I heard the knock I jumped the door opened and my sister was there.

"Minnie" I whisper
"Mikey" she opens her arms and I open mine. It's like an air hug because only she understands my fear of germs out of my family.

"How are you?" She asked

"Crap" I don't stare at her I scan my room for germs or missed dirt  

"Why?"

"It's all fucked up" I add my voice raising

"I know Mikey but you can do this" her voice cracks but I don't look at her 

"Can I though?" I ask

"Yes you can its just hard though"

"You think" I scoff

"Look Michael you gotta try, I'm here, The germs are not you, they can't beat you" she whispers slowly

"It's not just the germs it's everything" I say

"Like what?"

"Like I have to have even numbers of everything.
I have to make sure that all my clothes match. I have to make sure my clothes aren't crinkled. I have to sit in a certain spot and I have to count everything around me other wise I freak out. Minnie it's not just germs it's everything "

"Mikey; I just want to hug you. You're my big brother and I hate seeing you like this" she's crying now

"I hate BEING THIS WAY TOO" I scream

"Leave!" I start yelling at her and she runs off. Nurses barge in and try to calm me down but they're touching me. There's seven of them and now I'm freaking.

I can't breathe. It's all too fucking much.

The nurses all grab me spreading their germs onto me. I scream and kick but it doesn't help. My clothes are off and replaced with a stitch gown. Now they're throwing me into the padded room and locking the door.

I can't breathe, I'm shaking and screaming the germs and it's too much. My throat aches and my body is numb. I lie down with tears staining my face. I'm lost and broken once again. And completely covered in germs  

I rock my self exactly six times. Six times. Six is safe. But it can't remove the fact I am contaminated.
"You're going to die" the voice said
"Hit your head six times as hard as you can"
Why? I ASK
"because I'll help"
So I obey and I clench my fistand collide it to my head. Three on one side and three on the other. My head pounded it didn't seem to help at all but the voice said so. And besides it took my mind awaythe disgusting germs.
(Michael's Sister attached.
Ps; Sorry for the late update, I'll give you all a triple update because of my lack of updating. Love you
Lii)