Hospitalised//5sos©

Audrey

Everyone hates me.  My mum my dad and everyone in this god forsaken world. I know everyone's talking about me because I'm unlovable and hated by everyone.  There's apparently eight of us and I already know that they hate me.

I'm shaking as the nurse takes me to my room. She's tall brunette and thin with glasses and green eyes. I know already that she hates me. I can tell. She just glares at me. Saying nothing because she's too busy judging me

I unpack and she checks my bag. She's judging me already. She hates my clothes. She thinks they're ugly. She saw the size if my pants she thinks I'm fat. She saw my underwear she's judging them. And my bras a size b she's judging me I know it.

Why does everyone hate me. I already hate my self enough  

"Groups in five minutes" she says before leaving.

She's gonna tell the nurses how much of a freak I am.

Everyone hates me.

I scratch at my arm until skin breaks ; I hate myself and so does everyone else . I know that everyone hates me when if they don't say it. I can tell. Everyone hates me because I ruin everything. I'm useless.

I wish I could have friends I wish people liked me. I wish I was different. But I'm not. I hate myself. I wish I was never born.

I'm a burden, I know my mother regrets not giving me up. I know my father regrets ever making me. I know my family are ashamed to have me in their family.

I hate school because every time I went I was bombarded with words like knifes. I hated going to class because I had to sit alone and hear the whispers and feel the stares on me. I know my teachers hated me too they're all thinking about how stupid I am. I wish I could be different I wish I could be the girl who other girls want to be and the girl that guys want to be with. But I'm far from that