Hospitalised//5sos©

Ashton

I really didn't mean to listen to him, but I couldn't help it He's always there and I can never get rid of him. He said he was there to help me. He said shooting was the only answer and that I had to get rid of the evidence but in the end he lied, it didn't help and I failed.

His words always take over. He's angry at me and it's my fault. I never should of got caught. Stupid stupid.

As i dismiss the thoughts i go over the fact that I still don't get why they don't put me in prison because that's what I deserve. I'm a monster but apparently according to the court I need proper help. Not to be locked up behind bars but instead locked up in hospital for the "mentally ill"

What's wrong with me am I crazy?

I'm in this bloody hospital... Niall is beside me as always, I try to block him out but I can't, I'm exhausted so I have to listen to him.

The nurse in front of me is Tall, thin and Blonde; her names Misty. I like her, she's nice. She told me that I'm a lovely person and she'll do whatever it takes to help me. Niall hates her though because he thinks she's going to take him away.

Even though I sometimes hate Niall he'll never be taken away from me and I know that. He's always there. Real or not.

No matter what I can never get him to leave and a part of me doesn't want him to leave. He's all I have.

No one was ever there for me and I only ever had Niall. He's always been there for me through everything. Even when he makes me do 'bad' things I still forgive him because he stuck by me no matter what. Even if I could get rid of him I know I wouldn't want to.

((So first chapter, I know I keep writing stories but ehh.. Any way these chapters are gonna be quite short because they're just introductions))