Greenelan~The Journey

~Emma~

"I swear these people are too nice." I laugh as my head rests on Alyssa's chest.

"I agree. I thought this was going to be more of a Gordan Ramsey type show." Alyssa chuckles.

"Although, I am inspired to make a cake from scratch." I laugh as I look up at Alyssa.

Alyssa places a kiss on my forehead.

I've always imagined what it would be like if Alyssa and I were a public couple. But, I won't have to imagine anymore in 5 months and it's really exciting. If I'm being honest, I kind of forgot about prom. It's just something that wasn't on my bucket list...but now it is.

I'm not sure what I would wear though because I don't really like dresses. Don't get me wrong they're cute, but not on me. I have time to figure it out, so I'm not gonna stress about it.

"Alyssa, you said you have a dress for prom right?" I ask.

"Yeah, I do." Alyssa says.

"Well, can I see it?" I ask with a smile.

"Ha, you're funny. Nope it's a surprise." Alyssa laughs.

"Darn." I say with a frown. "Well, what if we end up wearing the same thing?"

"Emma. Hun. Babe. I know you don't like dresses." Alyssa chuckles.

"I- I do." I stutter.

"Emma, how many times have I been to your house?" Alyssa asks.

"A lot..." I say slowly.

"How many times have I been in this room?"

"A lot...." I say again.

"Now, how many times have I raided your closet looking for a hoodie to steal?"

"Too many times." I laugh. "Speaking of which...you haven't given me my black Nike hoodie back yet."

"You're not getting it back. Anyway, I've been in your closet and there is not one dress or skirt in sight. Now if you went in my closet, you would probably find one pair of jeans. Two if you're lucky." Alyssa says with a smirk.

"Fine, you caught me." I laugh.

Alyssa gets a text message and looks down at her phone.

"I have to go, but I'll see you on Monday." Alyssa says while getting up from my bed.

I walk Alyssa to her car and give her a quick peck before she leaves. She waves goodbye before she pulls out of the driveway and drives down the street.

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Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I never told my parents I was gay. I would still be miserable that's for sure. I immediately pick up my phone and text Alyssa.

Me: are you okay

Alyssa: yes....? em are YOU okay

Me: im just thinking...i was miserable before i came out to my parents

Alyssa: em what are you trying to say

Me: you not being out and all...are you doing okay? it took a toll on me in the past and i just want to know

i feel like i should have said something sooner but before we were dating i noticed when we were together you would be smiling and then you would just zone out and your expression would completely change that still happens sometimes now

is there anything going on

Alyssa: wow...i didn't think you paid attention to that

Me: alyssa...is everything okay up in the ol noggin

Alyssa: some days are better than others

Me: wym

Alyssa: when im with you i feel safe but as you noted sometimes my mind drifts

Me: where does it go?

Alyssa: my dad lol i guess my mom too she blames me for my dad leaving

i lose sleep at night trying to wrack my brain to figure out what i did wrong...maybe my dad knew i was gay before i knew idk he never said anything to me he just left

my mom and i bump heads a lot and maybe it's because of the resentment she has against me for making him leave...so some days are filled with a lot of stress and anxiety

im scared that if my mom finds out the truth she'll leave me just like my dad did...but i realized i can't live in fear because it's not healthy

Me: well have you ever talked to your mom about that

Alyssa: i've tried but she usually just lashes out

Me: alyssa im so sorry

Alyssa: there's nothing to be sorry for it's not your fault

Me: i wish i could meet your mom well i know who she is she's literally the head of the pta so i've seen her around school but i wish i could have a conversation with her

Alyssa: what would you say?

Me: im not sure but maybe something along the lines of  "your daughter loves you but you have to let her live her life how she wants...if not you're going to lose her"

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>>>>Monday

I walk down the hallway at school and for once I'm not getting bumped into or getting stuff thrown at me. What is going on? Did Alyssa talk to Principal Hawkins? Or are people finally done being ignorant.

Me: alyssa...did you talk to principal hawkins?

Alyssa: 😁

Me: i love you❤️

Alyssa: i love you more💜

She really did that...not just for me, but for other students too. Have I mentioned that my girlfriend is amazing? WELL SHES AMAZING!
Everything will fall into place once prom comes around. I'm so excited!

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a/n: i dont really know what i did with this chapter but i just felt like i needed to write something anywho...im definitely doing a sequel book but this book isn't over yet