She's the One [JJ x Reader]

Self-Esteem Talk

May 28, 2021
JJ is nearing the end of her second trimester. She's 25 weeks along and glowing every day. I know she doesn't see it that way though— all she sees is the pregnancy weight and how it's changed her body. Garcia confided in me a few days ago and told me that JJ's last three months of both her previous pregnancies were very hard for her. She isn't as confident in her appearance and Will never made her feel better about it. I kind of picked up on that, though, because JJ and I haven't been intimate in a few weeks. I don't remember the last time she let me see her naked.

It was nearing the end of our work day and I was done with most of my write-ups and consultations so I thought I'd pay Penelope another visit. I got up from my desk and walked over behind JJ, rubbing my hands over her shoulders.

"I'm gonna get up for a minute and go talk to Garcia about something, do you need anything before I go?"

She turned around to give me a quick kiss, "No I'm good, thank you Y/N" I smiled at her and made my way down the hall to Garcia's lair. I knocked on the door and stepped inside, seeing that Derek was also in there.

"Oh umm, I-I hate to interrupt, D, but I really need to talk to Garcia alone for a minute..."

He put his hands up, "No worries, princess, I'll get out of your hair." Once he walked back into the hall I locked the door behind him and went to sit next to Penelope.

"What's wrong, my dear?"

"This stays between you and me?"

"Of course, what is it?"

"Is there anything I can do to make JJ feel better about herself? Anything she ever wished Will had done? She's umm, she's gotten into that phase of her pregnancy where she just hates how she looks and I-I want her to know that I still think she's... beautiful."

"Sure thing, pumpkin. Uh... how long has this been going on? Couple days? Three days?"

"Almost three weeks."

"Three weeks!? And you come to me now?!"

"I know it should've been sooner, I thought I could deal with it on my own but nothing's been working... we haven't had sex in a while."

"Okay honestly, just talk to her. JJ is a talker, she talks through her feelings— you should know that by now. Will never understood that so he just ignored her. Don't do that. Talk to her."

"Talking, okay okay. I can do that. Is there anything specific I should say?"

"I'm not gonna write out a script for you, babe, she's your wife. Tell her what you just told me— that you think she's beautiful. Be genuine. Speak from your heart." She gave me a few more tips before telling me to get out of her lair and take JJ home. I drove the long drive back to Georgetown with JJ, planning what I was gonna say.

When we got back to our place and trekked upstairs, JJ put her bag down on the couch and announced "I'm gonna take a quick shower, baby."

I smiled and nodded as she waddled into our bedroom, "Okay Jen... need any help?"

She called from the bathroom, "No I'm fine, just stay out there!" I kicked my shoes off and sat back on the couch, sighing. I heard the water in the shower start and assumed that meant JJ was doing all right and didn't, in fact, need any help. JJ started taking longer showers once she really started feeling the pregnancy weight because it helps calm her muscles, so I knew she'd be in there at least 15 minutes. In the meantime, I thought I'd get changed into my pajamas while I had the bedroom to myself.

I walked into our closet and took off my work clothes. I grabbed my PJs for the night and brought them over to our bed so I could get redressed. As I walked by the bathroom, I thought I heard noises so I pressed my ear against the door and listened in. The muffled sounds of whimpers and groans were barely audible, but I could hear JJ moan, "Mmmm, Y/N.... Oh Y/N, Y/N, Y/N" Despite the fact that I desperately wanted to go in there help her get off, I kept the door closed and went about my business to give her the privacy she wanted. Several minutes later, JJ walked out with damp hair and fresh PJs, climbing into bed next to me. We sat in comfortable silence for a while— me scrolling through my phone and JJ reading some book about home decorating.

I finally decided to say what I wanted to say, "Hey um, can we talk about something?"

She put a bookmark in her book and then set it on her nightstand, "Sure, babe, what is it?"

"I uh, I-I've noticed how you've been feeling lately about... entering your third trimester and I just wanted you... to know... that I-I think you're beautiful. You always are, and you always will be. Every day I wake up and I can't believe the most gorgeous woman in the world is my wife and I... I haven't stopped thinking that since you've gotten pregnant."

She looked into my eyes but I still sensed sadness in her face, "Really?"

"Really. I-I want to help you feel more confident about your body, and I want you to know that you don't have to go through this alone. I still find you stunning, I still find you adorable, I still find you charming... I still find you sexy—"

She scoffed at that one, "You do not!"

I chuckled, "Of course I do!" I took her hand in mine and then continued, "I umm, I heard you... in the bathroom just now and one of the," I cleared my throat, "One of the things I wanted to talk to you about was having sex because we haven't... in a while. And you can't tell me it's because you haven't been in the mood because I just heard you in there jerking off so you're obviously in the mood for something"

She sighed, "I have been in the mood... I just didn't think you were. Now that I'm bigger and... less attractive I thought our spark wouldn't be there. Part of the reason my confidence has been so low lately is because of how I've been thinking you must see me— big and unattractive."

"You're not unattractive. I still find you irresistible..."

She blushed and smiled, "Yeah?"

I smiled back and used my thumb to wipe a tear off her face, "Yeah. You're hot. You might think I've been turned off the last few weeks but I promise you that's not the case... I can prove it if I have to?"

She smirked, "Hmm..."