bughead || broken

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it was a few weeks later and I was in my dorm , refreshing my Spotify page on my computer waiting tell jugheads bands new album had been released yet , I grabbed my computer and walked to my bed with my headphones in listening to the songs on full blast trying to understand the lyrics the best that I could , after a single song I shut my computer and walked around my room in frustration, not because the song was bad , it was like he was oblivious to the fact that the first entire track didn't completely resembled , me , or at least we both knew that and how awkward that would be , I heard music is a good way for people to let go of there feelings toward something , regardless I didn't know how to feel , I got ready for his release party thing held at some random place , I got ready and put the gift I got for him in this tiny box and drove there , I walked in and saw tons of people and didn't know a single one of them ,I went alone because Jules was out of town for a few days for grandmas funeral , I looked around for a while until I finally found him on the second floor of the place , the place was really loud and they were blasting music to the point were you could feel it , "hi" I said , he Couldn't really hear me so I practically yelled it again , he turned around "oh hey Betty" "congrats" I said , "is that... her" jughead turned back to them and put his finger over his mouth , then turned back to me "it's pretty loud do you wanna talk outside" "uh sure" he grabbed my hand and lead me to the roof , there was some big vent thing that we sat on , here I got you a gift . He picked it up for a few seconds "open it" I said , he took it out the box and saw a music box , when you opened it there was a picture or us that Veronica took at our first prom , and the music box played the song we both used to dance with each other to , I watched him form a smile on his face while he winded the lever on the side , "well do you like it" he nodded "yes , thank you" "you're welcome" we sat there for a moments , "the albums about me isn't it" I asked , "most of it , yeah" , I nodded I didn't say anything for a bit , "well are you gonna say anything" he said , "I don't know what to say" we looked at each other for a few seconds before he decided to kiss me , I pulled away from him and stood up , he got up a second later "what was that" I asked , "sorry I just thought-" I pushed him "you knew what this would do , and that I'd be running back into you're arms and that this would mix up all my feelings again" "what's so wrong about that now , we're not kids anymore , we're both situated i mean , how much of a coincidence is it that we're both here right now after saying our final goodbyes all that time ago" "I told you not to fall in love with me again." "it's hard to when I've feel in love with you since we were 17" "that wasn't love , no it was two really really sad people who had nothing and turned to each other for comfort" "well we're not those people anymore , it wouldn't be so wrong to try" he said , I had no words I could make out , for a few seconds , I placed my hand on his cheek and slightly smiled at him "no , maybe it wouldn't.