bughead || broken

20

It's prom, the kids are still ruled missing ,
I got ready then walked downstairs , I saw my mom she was drinking , "mom I thought after rehab-" "how many times have I said that betty" "many" I said , "we're are you going dressed for the met gala" "prom" I said " PROM? My you failed to mention that , if I'd known I would've helped you" "no it's fine , better off if I did it on my own , like I've done my whole life" she touched my cheek "I'm sorry I really am , I wish it were me that went that night and not you're father , he'd be so proud" I felt as a tear rolled down my cheek and the only thing saving me was a knock at the door "well I better get going" she nodded ,
I opened and saw jughead, weirdly enough in a tux , "ok Wilfred I see you" "my mom made me" "oh I know" I said while we walked to the car, when we got there it was like a literall movie , dancing , people going to the back to fuck etc.
I sat at veronicas table "hey" I said "we're have you been" "dead" she nodded , "so you and jughead" , I nodded "I told you girl" "that you did" "I'm gonna go spike the punch bowl" said Cheryl, "get me a cup" I said , "oh how this town is boring" "the only intrest is that Reggie mantle is m.I.a and and , well that's about it , "I hope he's dead" "you didn't-" "we both know I don't have the heart for that " she nodded , "I'll be back" I walked to the news paper , and I grabbed the news papers I had collected from the last couple of days , deadline being "Reggie mantle missing" and then I put them in the shredder , and walked back to the prom room , the whole night was rather boring , then I went back home
    The next couple of days was a waiting game
that was until the media got a lick of coverage
The biggest break , 5 teens burnt to death in deathly house fire , they said the other names, then Reggie mantle , it was pinned as a suicide pack , the golden bowl with "blood" and ray poinioning was there main suspect , not me
not a single fingerprint was left I think ,
second murder , I think
    I do it for charity , I take the people that don't deserve to be here , and I cleanse them, in a better place , with satan and the hell dogs , and if my dad truely is a bad guy , they can have a meet and greet ,
   After that very long explicit thought I went to my room and got ready for school ,
   When I got there I acted normal , tell lunch when I walked up to veronicas table , I usually did but this time I sat down quickly , then said 7 words I didint know existed in my vocabulary, "I want to be a river vixen" "huh" "you heard me , everything you know I know double I want this position" , deep down I felt it filled the urge to not hurt myself or others, whether it was arson , beating the shit out of , murder , this felt like my awnser , "ugh... fine I can assess u after school in the yard " "you won't regret this" "I better not she said" then I ran away
the next week or so I killed myself , not actually , but everyday , cheerleading , after that newspaper , news channels, urge , lots of it to , I picked up knitting maybe start boxing on Wednesday and Friday's , I know the root to the problem but I don't wanna fix it , but today , I'm gonna , I'm ready.
I stepped into the prison , saw him, my dads friend. "Please to see such a familiar face" he said, "let's cut to the chase , I want you to tell me all the details regarding my fathers mental estate in his life time" "what do I get in return" "I'm willing to blame you're murdered on someone else , someone dead , and you're a free man , ready to kill again." , "deal" , we both know I wasn't gonna do it." "What do you want to know" "everything you can" then I checked my clock "in 20 minutes"
"when we were younger he'd explain his explicit thought of trying to hurt people , in specific , you're brother , you , not Delilah , " "this is so pathetic I don't know a Delilah , I don't care about my fathers phycot drama because it doesn't exist , you're a compulsive freak, you're obsessed with me so you painted yourself as a friend , you want me , and I can't out my finger in it." "I know what you did" "do you love me" "yes" "then I need you to set me free , I said , "I need you to say it , my dad is a good guy " he tried , but failed "- i- lied" , I felt a tear fall down to my chest as I walked away "I lied to , that's why you're gonna rot here forever" "see you on the other side" I said before I walked away and he banged on the window nearly shattering the glass and getting tazed,
I knocked on jughead door to see him not open , so I opened it and say no one , but the cars were in the drive way , except his mom witch was normal and his sister did after school sports , I heard talking on the other side of the door and pressed my ear against the door , just some other guy , probably nothing so I was about to leave "yeah she's a mess" I paused for a second , maybe his mom , then "why are you still with her isn't there 100 prettier girls that would snatch you In seconds , "yeah I just feel like she's gonna kill herself if I'm not there" "then so be it" , the other dude got a call , "I've got to go see you later " "bye" , I hid behind the door , witch he left open , no emotion rather than a few tears ,
I wiped the tear from my cheek and walked down the stairs , I think he saw because after wards he chased me out the house , the sky was foggy and it was cold , like really cold , he tried grabbing me to hug me or something , "let go of me" "hear me out" "I'm trying , I'm really fucking trying , the other day I ate a whole candy bar withought forcing myself to throw up and I didn't feel disgusted for the first time in so long I felt like the same me from months ago would be proud , but she would be so disappointed , I know it" , then he hugged me, "You know I didn't mean it" "I hate the way you make me feel , and I hate the way I don't hate you , and I especially hate the way I can't let you go , not at all.