bughead || broken

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the next day I went home early in the morning , my whole body was swollen , I went into the kitchen , were my mom was up early , witch was unusual , "hi mom" she wiped a tear from her eye "listen betty , they found out you're dad had phycotic genes , and I tried to stop them but they won't let me , there gonna send you to a mental facility, but only for a little while " it took a second to process it before two bug guys like grabbed me "why are you letting them do this" I said ,  "it's not my choice betty" I tried to kick them or something but they were like walls , it felt like I didn't stop screaming until I got here ,
     The sisters of quite mercy ,
The first couple of days were hard , then they got even harder , you had to take like 4 pills a day and god knows what was in them , I just hid them under my tounge , I would cry at night and in the morning I'd just wake up and "eat" then watch tv , then they'd force us to watch creepy films on the projector, like shit about homophobia and under age sex type shit ,
Then pill time, labor time dinner then sleep , that was it . For 7 straight days , until the week after I got admitted , my mom came to pick me up , when I saw her I hugged her , with all the time I got to think I realized it wasn't her fault I was there , then I got home , while I waited in the drive way "can I say hi to him" "go for it" she said before walking in the house , I went to his door and I knocked , to my suprise his little sister awnsered , "hi" "oh hi betty" "do you know we're jughead is" I asked , "yeah he's at the drive in" "bye himself?" , she nodded , I told my mom I would go there so she just dropped me off , when I got there I looked for a little bit , until I saw his car , I knocked on the window and saw his head turn really quickly , then he looked confused when I opened the door , "hi" I said , "you went missing for a week I sent at least 200 texts" "I can explain" "maybe you were right , maybe we're not compatible  " I nodded , "you don't understand " , "no I've understood from the very beginning , you always leave for no explanation or come to my house crying or ghosting the world for a week straight all I'm trying to understand is what's wrong with you" , I nodded "if you loved me you wouldn't care how fucked I am" I said before I got out the car and ran out the drive in , when I got home I ran to my room and cried for what felt like days .
then school came around , in the morning I wore another hoodie , I still had some bruises , and if they did that whole thing again I would die ,
it was around lunch time , I had a couple classes with jughead but I sat in the back , he would always sit in the front , and when he tried sitting next to me I'd move , I was sitting at the lunch table , alone per usual , then he sat across from me while I was reading "hi" I looked up at him and then looked back at my book "can we talk and the least" , I slightly nodded "I'm sorry about what I said the other night" "no you're not" I said , "you don't know that" "is that what you came here to say because it's not like it's gonna magically fix things" "but I want to fix things I can't lose you" he said , "I knew you'd hurt me" then he paused for a second , and the cafeteria went quite , I looked at the door , I saw Reggie , and then I realized the sudden tension in the room , I ran out the cafeteria and went to the news paper , I just crawled under the desk and had the worst anxiety attack of my life , then five minutes after I heard the keys rattling so I tried to be quite , with was hard while I was sobbing , then I heard "betty?" I hid my face in my knees and then I saw the chair move , he out his hand on my shoulder , "period 5 just started , don't want you to be late" "I don't care if I'm late I care about you" I nodded , "I'm scared of him I'm really fucking scared of him" , then he hugged me and I cried there for a while "I'm a burden and I don't blame you for trying to get away from me" "you're not a burden I just don't understand you" he said , "and you won't you'll go crazy trying to figure me out I told you that at the very beginning"