bughead || broken

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         the days kind of passed and I didn't hear much from jughead , I walked into the living room and saw the news , I checked it every day , just in case I saw but today , the headline was , "serial killer caught" everyone talked about it at school , relived a murder wasn't roaming riverdale anymore , but still I was on edge , what he said about my dad and his genes , I didn't believe it , I've never experienced stuff like this , 
          After the news paper I went to the yard and looked for jughead , when I found him he sort of ignored me , he had his gym bag "what's been up you" "maybe you took me to a dungeon we're you like talked to serial killer and then a bunch of other stuff Happend , I was there if my fingerprints show up I will kiss any college goodbye" he said , "relax we were wearing gloves and the only thing you touched was a knife when you were about to stab me and we took that" he nodded "I can't trust you" he said ,
"That's fine darling I don't trust myself either" "just stay away from me ok" he said , "oh what you found out my dad was a phyco and he killed himself and now you're gonna leave to no one can be friend with the dead dudes daughter" he looked back at me "I don't care about you're dad I care that you're a phyco" "all I ever did was be you're friend when you were bored I always cheered you up not Archie and certainly not Claire"I said , "don't talk about her"  "don't try and pretend you care about her now"
"Well she doesent put me In shitty situations" he said , "someone's making you do this I can see it in the way you talk" "no I just don't wanna be friends with someone who's gonna kill themselves" "how did you find out about that" I said ,
       before I moved I was captian of the cheerleading team , the bitchy popular girl , no one knew what happened after that , what I did , and no matter what I hated myself ,
Tw :
I went in the bathtub and drowned myself , I stayed there for 5 Ish minutes under water , my brother only came in from the sound of the water overflying they bathtub , I was still in a a crew neck
when they got there my mom was at rehab and my brother had to watch them give my chest compressions and he rode in the van with me , I was alive just not awake , the only thing I remeber was waking up and holding my my brothers hand a little , then I kinda knocked out again ,
       "what are you talking about" he said , I just walked away "that's what happends when you look at the truth betty" I turned back and said , "you talk about me facing the truth then you're dads a alcoholic who beat you and then left and and you became a druggie just like you're old man" I said , I was really mean but it just came out "I'm sorry it just came out jughead" I said after , "well you're dad is a phycotic fuck and he drove off a cliff with his whole family , your dads a bad man betty face it" i pushed him and I kept just hitting him , he had like no reaction either way I was weak after it just turned into tears and I hugged him "I'm sorry" "yeah me to" , weird moment definitely "I'm sure you're dad was just a dick and you're not a druggie"  "you're sad would be proud of you" he said , "can we not fight again this is super akward" he nodded ,