bughead || broken

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                 The next week or so I disappeared off the face of the planet I didn't go to school , or awnser any texts or talk to anyone besides Charles , I only texted jughead once , he sent at least 100 texts , but today was the talent show thing ,
      I went at night time , I was in a hoodie and sweatpants , Reggie got expelled and charged , i never wanted to see him again , I sat down in the front row , waiting , and then finally jughead was on , he decided to sing lover man bye rick Montgomery , it felt  like it was one specific person he was talking about over everyone like clapped , I didn't want to watch the other hour of the show, I went to the back of the school , witch was were they would walk out , when he walked out I hugged him , when he realized who it was he hugged me even harder "hey" "were have you been" "room" I said , "really I've asked you're mom , she always said you were busy" "I didn't feel like seeing anyone" "but you could've texted" he said , "I didn't have the strength to get out of bed in the morning let alone check my phone everyday" he nodded , "well I'm glad you're here now" "me to" , we went to his house and I sat on his bed , it was kinda hot so I took off my hoodie , I was wearing another crew neck , when he turned his house he looked at me for a second , not realizing "so who did you dedicate you're performance on tonight , Claire ?" "Claire ? What no we broke up like a month ago" "why" I asked "just didn't work out" I nodded "so who were you singing about" "nobody" he said , "oh cmon there's no way you can sing like that with ought it being dedicated to someone , you might as well say there name in the song "fine then" he said before he sat behind his keyboard , he played the keyboard music and then sang it "I'm mr lover man and I miss betty"  "is that like a metaphor because I disappeared for like a week" , he shook his head and stood up then he walked over to me , then kissed me , it lasted for a solid 3 seconds , I pushed away "this won't work out" I stood up and grabbed my sweater , before I left the room he grabbed my hand "what do you mean" "this , me admit it , you're like a golden boy" "I hate those words" he said , "then there's me , my dad killed himself with my sister and it's not soon until I do the same and everyone just hates me" "nobody hates you betty"
    I pulled down the neck part of my shirt , it showed the dark dark spots in my neck "that doesent happend from being just drunk " , he hugged me , "who did that to you betty" I shook my head "nobody"  "I don't think nothing did that to you" he said , "I tried hanging myself ok" "that's a good excuse but when you try hanging yourself you have marks in the front and the back of the neck , someone choked you" "you think this is fucking helpful to me , I had to spend 6 hours in a police station were they made me take off my shirt and just questioned me and made me feel like a animal , and I only told when It jeopardized you're future sitting there watch you mouth I'm sorry like it was you're fault  fucking hurt me "   "I'm sorry" after that I talked to him in the bed , told him all about what I did this week , then I got tired , I felt to tired to walk home , I laid on his bed only far a second , "can you lay here for a sec" I asked , he nodded , "it was like Wendsday and I had to go to reggies to tutor him , and he kinda smelled like beer , and then he forced me to kiss him and when I tried to leave he grabbed my and he choked me until I couldn't breath and when he let me go I fell and I was trying to breathe while he just watched , then I left and never told anyone until I fell asleep in the class and got sent to the office , mr weather bee saw my bruises and he caled the cops , and my mom , but I never brought up you I guess it's just cause you're the only person I talk to , "I'm gonna fucking murder Reggie" , he was about to stand up "please don't do anything " "I cant promise that" he said , "please just promise that for me" "fine" , I kissed him back then , "I thought you" "I still stand bye that but fuck it" , then I fell asleep