bughead || broken

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    The next couple of weeks were typical , Reggie started to leave me alone , today was another .... football game , not exactly it was a pep rally but that's just a nice way of calling in a football game but girls with 2 inch skirts dance for old men's                                
  entertainment , I was in the bathroom texting my mom when I heard the door lock , no one else was in there so I slightly panicked , I heard them walking towards the stalls , maybe the janitor but it's doubtable considering it was mid game , then they pushed it open , Reggie "what do you want" I said , he gave no response , I stood up and almost walked away when he grabbed my wrist and started squeezing my hand super hard , "come on you don't have to do this" , I hugged him and started saying nice stuff to him because if he was distracted bye me being nice then I think he'd calm down , then I said fuck that and ran at the door , locked "come on you don't have to do this we can be friends and i won't tell anyone what you did" he started walking me into a corner ,  "I've always secretly loved you that's why I didn't want to tell anyone" , he looked taken back a second , fucking idiot actually believed that , but he didn't , then he grabbed me bye the neck , "take of your shirt" "no" I said , "take it off or I'll rip it off and youl walk out of here shirtless" I nodded , I would try and make a distraction but I had nothing to hit him with , "sit on the floor" "please don't" , then he made me stare up at him , and he took a photo , I think he wanted to make it look like I was sucking his dick or something , I knew who he'd send that to , I jus Thad to pray he'd know , then I put on my shirt "walk out the bathroom 5 minutes after me" "fucking dick" ,
       After I walked to the bleachers , I put on my sweater and waited through the show , then when it was over everyone left and jughead was taking longer to get out , then when he got out he walked straight to his car and acted like I wasn't there , when I tried grabbing his wrist he just turned and looked at me , witch means he saw the photo, "it's not what you thin-" "then what is it you have Reggie a blow job in the bathroom during a pep rally" , I almost laughed at the way he put it , "no I didn't just     calm down and I'll tell you" he grabbed my hand and         squeezed it out of frustration "that hurts" I said , he looked back up at me and then let go"please just let me explain" "after everything , I said I loved you I've never told that anyone" "and I love you to that's why I woudnt do this " , he went in his car and then drove away , I just waved bye at him
          The next week passed bye , I sent him at least 200 texts , he went to school but I'd get to nervous to approach him , it was around 11 at night and I was on a walk , I had to pass reggie's house , he got out for a second "funny seeing you here" I said , "come inside betty let's talk" "no thanks" he walked down his porch then started walking over to me then I slapped him and ran away , he started following after me and I was running out of air , but I saw someone ahead , and I tried to keep running , but when I got closer I saw who it was , I hugged him and then when I turned Reggie was walking back to his house , "thank you" I said while crying , he backed away from me "yeah sure" I nodded then walked back home , I was in my room , I was frantic and when I was in this head set I never knew what to do,
      I picked up my phone and I kept dialing my dads number , as if I was waiting for him to awnser , no one had that number so it was some boy telling me the number I called was out of service , I went downstairs and told my mom I'd be back in a hour , I went in the car , I drove to the cemetery witch was In green dale about a hour away , it was closed so I climbed a 6 foot fence , and then I found my dad , "I hope you're happy now , I know you are , with polly
    I'll be there soon , and I know you're gonna be there waiting , of course you woudnt aprove of me killing myself , but in the end that's how I'm supposed to die , I met someone his names jughead , I love him but I think he hates me now , and that's fine I would hate me to , anyways I had no intention of this but while I'm here I might as well kill myself , feels kinda appropriate , this sound rather delusional but I have nothing to live for so fuck it" I grabbed my bottle of pills from my bag and contemplated for a moment , "I'll see you soon" then I put them in my mouth but before I swallowed it I felt someone grab me , and I turned and saw jughead , he put his hand in my mouth and started throwing them out , I laid down then started coughing "funny seeing you here" I said , "I'm sorry" he said "you don't have to be , I like cheated on you" I said , "no you didn't" he said , "how do you know that" "because I know who you are, and you wouldn't willingly do that" I nodded "and you knew that this whole time, so fuck you" I said, then I walked back to my car , "can we talk about this" he said , I ignored him and kept walking to my car