bughead || broken

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It was later on in the night and Charles party had been going on for about a hour downstairs , when I finnaly decided to go down I just remembered getting shit faced drunk , I sat at my couch were everyone was sitting , they were playing spin the bottle , considering that I was in the clouds I agreed , I watched the bottle spin and move down person by person , then it turned to some tall guy , he had brown hair and a awfully sharp jawline I looked to the side for a split second and saw jughead , he looked oddly , jealous though he had a girlfriend , I looked back at the other guy and just got the kiss over with afterwards I walked to the bathroom and washed my face , it was like I cheated on Someone I'm not even dating , then I went back to the couches , "we're did you rush off to" "I just felt sick" she nodded , the party went on I was in the backyard sitting at the pool then I saw the guy that I kissed earlier,
He sat right next to me "hello?" "Hi" he said "so what you want to hook up or something?" I asked "I'm gay" I slightly tilted my head "sorry" "no it happens" I nodded "I've never seen you around before " "that's because nobody knows I exist" he said , "oh what I'd do to be anonymous" "I've been trying to boost my social life since I was in 7th grade" "what for" I said , "I've always wanted to be seen for who I am , like you , you walked in the school and made everyone humble and the world praises you for it , or at least you're 25 thousand followers " "because I didn't care so much I was always authentic and people never knew how to react to it so they just gave me attention" he nodded "you dated jughead Jones , the jughead Jones , and then you disappeared and he moved on to make you jealous didn't he" he said , "no we both ended it on our own terms" "oh come on it was so normal for you to disappear and come back , he is hardly interested in alexa, what this is like the third time he's done some stunt to get back at you am I right" I thought about it for a second as I slowly realized he was right , "so what's you're plan" "here's the deal , you give me publicity and popularity and I'll pretend to date you to make him jealous" I thought about it for a second , and how intimidated jughead was when I kissed him, "deal , but we never kiss because that would be super weird for both of us and you have to walk me to my classes and sit next to me" he nodded "happy birthday bye the way" he said before he got up and left "I didn't catch you're name" "Kevin , Kevin Keller" I nodded , a few seconds later I saw jughead walk to the back , I looked away for a second he walked closer to me "hello" I said while my head was still directed away from him "I think we need to talk" he said , "no, I don't think we do" we was about to sit next to be until I tried getting up and he tripped over me and we both under up falling in the pool , I just slightly screamed fuck before I ran out the pool and went into the house , he was following after me as I was looking for Kevin , I was him near the bar I took a shot then kissed him just so jughead would fuck off , in the corner of my eye I saw him walk away , then me and Kevin backup up from each-other, then I realized everyone was staring at us , I leaned into his ear and whispered "sorry" he nodded , I walked back to my room and sat there in frustration.
on Monday I went to school in sweatpants a tank top and a robe

This one to be exact , when I walked in everyone just , stared , because it was was obvious I no longer gave a fuck , and I'm my dumbass pink car , i also had black sunglasses on the whole day , I had a two day long hangover and my eye bags were not okay
When I walked into class everyone just stared at me , I sat down before the teacher came and it was like she had seen a ghost , "mrs cooper please go to the office and get a change of clothes , "I'm so sorry , do my shoulders distract you ?" I asked , "office now" "the dress code states no revealing clothing , do you see my nipples hanging out like it's 5 degrees outside?" I asked , "well , no" "then you're the one distracting this class rather than my intimidating shoulders " she turned back to the desk and awkwardly stood there for a few moments while the rest of the class talked over her , it was lunch and I was looking for Kevin , I found him at his locker "I'm seriously considering hooking you up with my brother" I said randomly , "what are you wearing" "like it?" he nodded "hood because my mom acidentally bought three I'll give you one after school " "you're a god" he said "I'm aware" we were at the lunch area sitting at the table next to the "populars" "ok so you're first step into royalty is to know the people , jughead Jones , he seems intimidating , fucking Angel sent from the gods , veronica lodge same thing , cheryl is some what shallow shes fine tho , I feel like you'd click with her , um the rest of the football guys , at first there fucking dicks there not homophobic anymore after I bullied them out of it , uh the cheerleaders are all extremely nice , almost to nice , Charles , my brother if that wasn't obvious he's sweet , you two would probably end up dating , and I'm not even saying that because you're both gay" he nodded , I noticed he wasn't eating anything , "were is you're food" I asked , "I didn't feel hungry" I nodded "yeah I'm gonna go to the bathroom wait here" I bought him a tray of food , "here" "I'm not hungry " he said , "you haven't eaten all day cmon" "I'm just fasting" he said , "I'm anorexic so I can say with certainty that starving you're self isn't suddenly gonna make all you're insecurity's slip away , I've battled a eating disorder since I was a little kid after my dad went bozo and my foster family's wouldn't feed me , I know how you feel " he nodded and started eating , how did you recover?" "I know my worth , and you should to" "what if I feel like I'm not worth , worth you know" "I pulled up my sleeve and showed him my arms , "if she can sort through her shit and know her worth , you can to" he nodded "are those new?" He asked I shook my head "no of course not , only a few months ago you could've scanned my arm and a price would pop up " he slightly laughed "sorry" he said , "don't be , I've always used humor and jokes to cope , I see no problem with you doing it to" "yeah" he said before the bell rang , the next period was theatre , I had it with Veronica Cheryl jughead and some other football dudes
"Betty , can you stand here and tell the class what you did this summer" I was completely zoned out the whole period so I just stood on the stage thing and got practically blinded bye the light "does that light turn off" I asked , "no" , "oh okay" "well I'm betty , uh betty cooper , during the summer I was visiting some family in England and um they had a really nice house , I went out to the garden a lot and I met some people" "I thought you didn't have any other family Elizabeth" , said jughead I just felt a huge migraine come "well uh" before I complete fainted in front of everyone I ran to the bathroom , I sat down in the stall and just felt my whole body shake , as I rocked back and forward on the ground before I heard the door open , someone pushed open the door I looked up and saw jughead , I put my head back in my knees , "I'm sorry I really am" I didn't say anything I just pointed at my bag while my head was still down , he slowly passed me it and I dumped it all out and looked for my medicine , I took two pills and then he said "I'm sorry betty" "I don't care I don't fucking care honestly , I need you to forget I fucking existed" "I I I just I can't" "and why's that" I said , "because you made me fucking fall in love with you just so that you could leave me wondering what the fuck I did wrong" I put my head back in my knees and started shaking my head "we aren't meant for each other This isn't love " "I'm the only person in this school that knows you , I'm the only one that fucking cared when you disappeared for months on end I fucking killed someone for you you think I love Alexa ? You think I loved anyone I've ever dated besides you ? It was all some elaboration to get you to love me again , I've never found someone like you I've sweeped the whole world and I wouldn't be able to love someone half as much as I love you" "you're scaring me" I said , "just say the word and I'll go but if you feel anything towards me I just need to know ,do it for me." With tears filled to the brim of my eyes and my mascara running down my face I shook my head , "I know you don't love Kevin , look me in the eyes and say that you want to be with him , do it" I got my thumb and wiped the tiny tear that rolled down his cheek , "I don't think we're meant for each other , it's not you either , I just can't love I've tried but I can't , I can't love you jughead" "I waited and I did everything right because I figured that you would love me " "I've tried and for a while I did , i truly did but I can't say I do because I can't lie to you , I think you're gonna find some girl and and I think you're gonna love her and you'll live with her tell you grow old and Marry way after all this high school stuff and I will stick around and I will watch , because I simply can't force myself to love someone that I can't because then I'd be trapped again , if you loved me you'd let me go , and you'd let me watch you grow old , but as friend , I don't want to be a slave to you're feelings , I just can't love , and it's not you because you did everything right , I can't love , I tried convincing myself that I loved you but I can't " "I think you'll find someone and you'll love them and you'll grow old with them , but it won't be me" he said before he walked out the bathroom