bughead || broken

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It was the next day and I was going to his house , contemplating what jughead said for the 20th time , I trusted my gut that said going there was a bad idea and told it to shut the fuck , I drove to his house and knocked on the door , he had a massive home , we were in his room "what do you wanna do" "anything" I said , we sat there and talked for a while , until he leaned in and attempted to kiss me ? , I backed my head away slightly and smiled , "what are you doing" "I thought it was the time" he said , "oh , I think you're confused , I don't think I like you like that" "you're not pretty enough to say no" "I am and I will" I said before I walked away , he grabbed my hand really hard , "what are you doing" "just be quiet I don't want to do this either" he grabbed me and threw me at the bed , the only thing I would do was scream "no ones gonna hear you" he said , before he tried unbuttoning my shirt I reached to his night stand and grabbed the alarm clock and hit him in the head with it , while he got off the bed in pain I ran out the room and got lost in his house while looking for the front door , after a bit he came from upstairs , I hid in the hallway and when I did manage to find the exit he was at the door , walking towards me "you don't have to do this" , "just shut up" he said while still  walking towards me , the only thing I could do was run , I ran into a guest room and locked the door , the only thing I could do was call someone , I didn't like the police due to the discomfort that they've put me through before , so I called jughead , as I whispered while he frantically looked for a key , "please help me" "what , I can't hear you " "I'm at sams house in on the second floor and the first room through the hallway , I'll share my location with you" o said before the call ended , I quickly shared my location with him , and luckily we only lived about 2 minutes away , I heard the door knob turn while I tried to hide in the corner , he grabbed my wrist and slapped me , the only thing I could do was try to fight , but all my strength couldn't resist my fate , "I didn't want to do this" "and you don't have to you don't , we can just talk , I'll even go to the dance with you , I promise" "can you just shut the fuck up" I nodded , then I heard the door downstairs open "what the fuck was that" he said , "did you call anyone " I shook my head "Im gonna fucking kill you" he said before he put duck tape over my mouth , before he walked out the room the door opened and I turned my body away and curled into a little ball and closed my eyes , wishing I was somewhere else , in seconds I just forced myself to fall asleep , and I woke up , inside jughead room , I opened my eyes and frantically looked around , and saw jughead sitting right next to me , I put my head on his leg and cried , "I'm sorry" he said , "you don't have to feel sorry for my stupidity" "no , I'm sorry that the world couldn't protect you , I'm sorry I couldn't protect you" "you're not my protector , and I don't want you to feel like you have to do anything for me" he nodded , "how did you're date go" "not good" he said , "whys that" "it would feel kinda unrealistic to be in a relationship with someone I can't actually like because I'm in love with someone else" I nodded , "me too" , it was quiet for a second , I sat back up and. He wiped the tear from my eyes from previously, I looked at him for a second , "i grew up around people with so much love in there heart but they couldn't show me it in a healthy way , that's why I think meeting you , who didn't walk all over me to get what you wanted was really confusing , and I didn't know how to meet you half way without hurting you , so I didn't" "but you did the one thing that could remotely hurt me" "you weren't the only one , that hurt" he nodded , "maybe in the end , we , as in you and me , weren't meant to be" "and why's that" he said "perhaps were just not compatible" I said , "name one person that knows you more in the world " "We both know I can't" "exactly" he said , "it's not that I don't like you , I tried denying it , but it got me nowhere , and I've tried ignoring it and I've tried everything to just make it disappear because I figured it would be better for you in the long run , but then there's just a void , It's like if I'm nothing if I'm not with you , I've got no family , everyone in school thinks I'm some hbic , everyone has there own views on me , but I've never been able to see myself as a person if I wasn't you're person , I've said in the past that people don't belong to people , but deep down , I think that we're each others people , and I've tried denying that for so long to afraid of what would happened , but i don't want to live my life denying any affection that comes towards me" he then kissed me