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hello , it's been a while since I've done a self diary , at first when I got to this place it was scary , all the people here were just like me , with diffrent cases of course , some schizophrenic, phycotic , eating disorders etc ,
weird considering I came in here with all three of those things , I don't know the exact days I've been here because after a while I didn't feel like I had to count them down anymore , I found a community of people like me and I didn't feel so alone anymore , I was in the library when one of the nurses walked it and told me my mother was here , normally it was because she visited , when I walked to the front I was handed a bag , with all my clothes "well it was a pleasure having you betty " she said , "I'm going home ?" I asked , her response was distracted bye my mother walking in , "come on betty" "I don't want to go home" I said , "you need to come home " "I can't , not yet" then they had to force me to go home , the car ride was about 3 hours , I was quite majority of the time "I don't think I want to die anymore" I said , "I'm glad you've finnaly found you're self " "how long have I been in there" "you didn't count?" "Time flies when you're having fun" "well , roughly 3 to 4 months" "MONTHS" I said , "yeah" , bye this time the black I had dyed had already faded and I was oddly blonde again , rare , after hours I was finally , home I walked in to see the house , it was , different , to say the least , minus the fact that it was suspiciously quite the whole bloody thing screamed rich white mom , hell our toaster even had a screen , there was a wine bar , the stairs were replaced with spiral straicases and there was a fire place and a POOL" "mother I think we walked into the wrong home" "no no , this is it, why don't you go ahead and look at youre room" , I walked upstairs to see

Mother , why does this look like the queen of England's room , "it only costed 100 thousand" I laughed it off assuming she was joking , "well betty , I know you wouldn't agree to me spending you're fathers will , but I , did I nodded "how much of it" "oh really nothing maybe half a million " " HALF ??? AS IN A MILLION" she nodded , "well I had to extend the house a lot larger and then I had to break down pollys room and then the other extra rooms lying around , and decorate the house of course , "I understand that in some sense , but you can't go putting you're money into everything" she nodded , "can I go to the store for some stuff " I asked , she nodded and handed me about a thousand dollars "what did I just say " I walked up stairs and looked for my brothers room , the last time we talked was like 2 months at least , I walked in and he was rather , shocked he shot out of bed ran towards me , "like you've seen a ghost " I said , "well you practically a dead girl walking around here" "what do you mean bye around here" I asked "the whole town thinks you're practically dead" "jughead hadn't stopped asking about you for months" "what made him stop" "he died" felt my heart suddenly got 100 pounds "I'm fucking with you he got a girlfriend" "and that's abt better" I exclaimed, "whatever loser but tommrow , first day of school" I nodded , I went back to my room and got everything I needed for tommrow ready I was rather , nervous , everyone thought I was dead but I suppose that was normal since I did disappear every other week ,
   It was the next day , I had dressed up in sweatpants and a Nike crew neck , And put my hair like this

I also wore sunglasses I figured the diffrent hair color and baggy clothes would cover my identity the second I was walking towards my locker , only a few feet away from mines was , Reggie , mantle , I stood at his locked for linger than I realized , the look of the his picture surrounded by flowers and candles crushed me , he doesn't deserve all this , someone stood next to me glancing at his memorial , "hello" I said before I turned my head , "nobody has stared at his memorial in ages , "explains the beauty in the dead roses" , though the voice sounded rather familiar I didn't turn around , then the bell rang and the other guy walked away , I stood there for a few moments , remembering what hapoend last summer ,
   during lunch I was in the cafeteria and I was sitting at the table , bye myself , I've over compensated my eating disorder these last few months ,  I've been better , started gaining to , I walked over to the popular table were basically all the assholes of the school went to brag to everyone that they were more relevant than them I sat near bye the cheerleaders , Veronica , Cheryl etc , the other side was the football players , and jocks , Cheryl and Veronica looked at my in disbelief, not because they knew it was me but because I sat at the acient table , "who do you think you are" cheryl asked , "god I said "well we got an sarcastic one" "why don't you do you're self a favor and go with with all the other social rejects " I slowly took off my glasses "I don't remeber you being this bitchy" I said , the shock that came to eyeryones eyes , after all the eyes were on me , they seemed to all direction to him , I hadn't seen nor heard from him in roughly 4-5 months , but fuck did he have a glow up , at first I saw him for him , and don't get me wrong I still do , but fuck , only we were both about 10 feet away from each other we only kept eye intact for about 5 seconds before looking away , afterwards everyone talked to me about my summer , why I disappeared , again I made some elaborate thing to say I didn't go to the loony bin , again "so betty we're did u go ?" Veronica asked "well I visited my family in England" "so I heard you're mom went bonkers and dropped hundreds of grand on like anything" I nodded "we're did all that money come from" "I couldn't tell you" , suddenly the bell rang and we all went to gym , it felt like every boy was looking at me , not even to sound like a narcissist but it was like I was the Megan fox of river dale high , the whole day was just introductions and stuff , at the pe field I was walking with Veronica and we just talked , "so we where you actually for the last 4 months" "England" I said , "no but actually , cut the England shit because I know you're only family is Charles and you're mom" "points were made" I said , "well in the mentally stablest way possible , a rehabilitation place" "figured" "don't tell anyone" "why don't you want people knowing" she asked , "because , when I first got here last year I was nothing , nobody knew about my dad , then I was jughead Jones girlfriend , then head cheerleader , then I was betty cooper , the betty cooper , I don't want to be a walking depression stick" she nodded ,
It was after school and I was about to walk into my house until my mom ran out and screeched "betty you're finally home" I nodded "happy birthday" she said as she clicked the button thing that opened the garage , inside was a pink convertible "oh well I did forget it was my birthday did I" "are you kidding , Charles has been counting it down for weeks ! , we and Gladys are both going out of town for a few days and you're brother is throwing what he's calling the biggest party in riverdale history " I nodded she picked up her suitcase and put it in her car , "also you should probably talk to jug-head , he might have moved in but doesent mean you two can't be friends" , she talked a lot , a little to much considering just 20 feet away from me was jughead about to walk into his house , but her loud mouth had Visioned his attention towards me "yeah I suppose , I'll see you in a few days , don't spend the other millions of dollars of dads will ok" she nodded and proceeded to drive only a few feet to jugheads house were Gladys ran out