Under your skin
Feel my blood flow with yours
My heart beat with yours
Sharing this body as one
Save me as I save you
This skin holds enough room for two
Under my skin
I belong with you
As you belong with me
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May 23rd 3 Months Later
"So how do you feel about it all?" Polly asked me.
I leaned back into the seat slowly and sighed.
I had been back seeing her as soon as I was discharged from the hospital and back home. Honestly, I needed it.
Currently we were discussing Xavier and I'd relationship. It wasn't nonexistent but it wasn't romantic. We were strictly platonic but he still was there when I needed him.
I remember when we had the talk.
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"I'm being real with you. We need time apart from being a couple still. Just because we mended over, doesn't mean we're ready. I'm not ready and neither are you Hayden. We got shit to handle about ourselves. And it's better we do that alone."
He reached out to wipe the stray tear from my face.
"I aint mean to make you cry about this."
"I know. It's okay. You're right. It doesn't even make sense for me to try and jump back into a relationship knowing that I'm probably going to end up relying on you more than myself."
He nodded.
"I ain't going no where. We still us, just on a different time."
He squeezed my hand and I nodded.
"So you're not going to stay here then?"
"No, I am. As long as your mom allows me to. I meant what I said, as much as I wanna be around Tío, Jason and Vana, that house is tainted for me. Too many memories of a lie I was living. My dad wants me to move with him but....I'd have to switch schools and it's too late for all that. 4 months till we graduate and I gotta figure out what university I wanna go to. I'm not picking up and moving." He paused. "And I can't be away from you. No matter if we together or if we not. I'm your friend first. And if you need me I wanna be here, where you can reach me."
Since that, we've been just that. Best Friends. We also discussed plans outside of us, mainly....if we wanted to, would we see other people. And Xavier made it pretty clear his answer was a resounding no. He didn't wanna be with anybody else. Neither did I.
"I feel okay."
"Yea?"
"I mean...sometimes it's frustrating cuz all I want to do is grab him and kiss him. But we just can't get tangled up right now."
